Unequal

Elementary

"Hey big brother do you remember our elementary days?" The letter of the newly departed read." Do you remember your bad habit of always referring to yourself in third person, or how you always used big words unlike me? Do you know you still do that? Do you realize that on contrast to how you seem to appear on the surface , a well organized man who is fully aware of his surroundings, that you are actually quite clumsy and unaware? Do you know that you haven't changed once since our childhood? Back then we were inseparable, like the sun and the moon, no matter how different we were, no matter how much we disagreed , we always shared a similar light which bound us to the same sky. We shared both sad and jolly times, love and hatred, and pride and shame in those bittersweet memories. However, do you still remember that so called "intelligence" test which separated us in different classrooms? Did you know that from then on I found out that no matter how much I chased after you I could never compare or stand as an equal beside you. Yes it was that spring day we had been eagerly awaiting the results from the I.Q. test we had both been invited to take in order to participate in "advance" classes. That warm spring moment of our youth, that day full of butterflies within me, was the day I came to realize the cruel ness of this world. I can still feel that dreadful feeling like if someone were reaping me apart slowly and viciously as I heard the results. I had failed and you went beyond expectations. To tell you honestly, I wanted to rip out your heart and make it stop beating out of my envy. However, I restrained my desires and congratulated you with a big happy smile however painful it was because you were my brother and because only I knew your weaknesses. Those thoughts were what kept me going as I studied like there was no tomorrow in order to surpass you who had many weaknesses, yet still surpassed me."