The diary of a Yandere

I want you all to myself, you are my beloved. You just dont know it yet

April 3, 1989

Dear Diary

How do I begin? Well we can start off with my childhood I remember hospital's, doctors and examinations. To put it into simple words I was broken. The doctors were trying to figure out the source so they could fix me. But nothing worked my parents tried to explain what was wrong with me. They tried to tell me why I was different from everyone but I didn't understand. I heard the doctors tell my parents that they couldn't fix me. As I grew older I came to realize what was wrong with me. I saw the kids at my school show emotions. They were happy, sad, mad. But I've never felt these things I only felt numb, empty, incomplete. My dad wanted to desperately fix me. He wanted a normal family, he often bought me gifts, anything a child wanted. But nothing, I didn't feel anything. Unlike my mother she was different. She wasn't worried about me at all because she said that she was just like me and she said "one day you'll find someone who will make your life wonderful" my dad refused to believe my mother's words. So he kept trying and trying I felt pity for him. I didn't want to see him try again so I pretended to be normal. This made him happy and I continued to do so as I started to have other siblings but they were all normal. From the moment they were born they could easily show emotions except for me. Although it's the same thing over and over. I kept getting older and still nothing. I felt nothing but I had to pretend to have friends, hobbies, and I had to pretend to care. I was like this almost everysingle hour of every single day. But the only time I didn't have to pretend was when I was Alone. I was starting to become resentful of my condition. I tried everything to make myself feel something. Shame, anger, regret, guilt. Nothing. Everything I tried didn't work. My mothers advice was always the same. I tired to wait but nothing. I keep reminding myself what my mom always saying to me "one day you'll find someone who will make your life wonderful" but I was beginning to lose hope until I found someone different. He's so sweet, I've never seen him before but I found out his name is Alexander. He's everything I could ask for we met when I tripped over someone's leg while I was carrying some books to the library for a teacher. So I fell but he then offered a hand with a worried look. It made me feel in a way that I can't even imagine. I felt something that was never there before. That's when I knew he is the one who will save me and fix me! God has sent me an angel to save me from feeling this way. Ive never felt this happy in my entire life. I've been watching him for over a year. Alex is perfect but when I was finally going to talk to him but someone got in the way. She is trying to take him away from me. I won't let that happen, I don't care what I have to do . I don't care if I have to ruin relationships, I don't care if I have to make him all alone. I don't care if I have to murder I want him. And only him.

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I'm in the girl's bathroom in a stall. I know it's strange but this is the best spot I could think of in school before class starts, waiting for this girl. I've been studying this girl for a while. Her name is Elizabeth Schuyler, just saying that wicked witch's name sickens me. Her gentle grey eyes, long raven black hair, baby blue dress with her white socks, and black flats. Just saying her name makes my blood boil. I don't understand why My beloved Alex is friends with this girl. She comes to the bathroom. where I finally get to talk to her but I accidentally frighten her. Eliza looks nervous but begins to Speak "Oh John, you're the person Who wanted to meet me here?" I simply laugh a bit pretending to be happy "well of course! I wanted to tell you something about that boy you like" I watched her with a blank emotionless face. "Oh my Goodness! It's so embarrassing!" she turned around clearly embarrassed. I'm surprised that she hasn't questioned why a boy is in the girl's bathroom. That doesn't matter anyway she starts talking some nonsense that makes me roll my eyes. So I take this chance and kill her. I grabbed the knife I took from the home eco room and held her from behind. Holding her mouth so she doesn't scream and before I stabbed her neck I whispered in her ear "He belongs to me." She began to struggle but I stabbed her neck and blood began to squirt out. I let go of her as the blood continued to come out of her neck. I check my watch before the bell rings. Everyone is now officially in class which means no one is roaming the halls. I grabbed a garbage bag, stuffing her body into the black bag. I then take the bleach and the mop that was there. Looking around I see a small bucket and begin to smirk. As I start to put bleach and the water into the small bucket I pull out my small bottle of Hydrogen Peroxide to not leave anything behind. I put some Hydrogen Peroxide into the mixture and turn off the water. I begin to clean the blood away. Once the blood is all gone I look back at the Garbage bag and decide to put another one just in case the bag rips. But I realized that my clothes were also very bloody. I curse under my breath and put everything I used back in their place. I carry the body bridal style, I poked my head out to see if anyone was in the halls. Nothing, I then begin to run off to the back of the school, knowing that there is an incinerator to burn the evidence. Once I'm at the incinerator and get it open. So I threw the body into the incinerator but then went off to the locker room which wasn't very far from the school. I take off the bloody clothes before going off and showering away all the blood that was on my body. I think to myself about what I've just done but I don't feel any type of guilt. When I'm done, I put on some fresh clean clothes and grab the blood-stained ones and go back to where the body is. I throw my clothes into the Incinerator and take out the knife. Before throwing it in there along with the rest of the evidence. I closed the doors of the machine before it began to burn. I begin to burst out of laughter before relaxing and walking out. Suddenly I hear a voice "John...why did you take the knife out of the home eco class?.." I turned around and simply smile at the smaller female. She's related to the girl I murdered, Her name I don't really know "Oh It belonged to the cooking club! I was just putting it back into its place." Just like that, I walk away as if nothing happened.