Mewgulf. Oneshot

If you love someone, tell them

If you love someone, you tell them

2am, in a dark room

1 day I did not see him

1 day I did not talk to him

1 day I hold my breath each time my phone ring

1 day I see him in the street but it is not him

I turn around in my bed and he is not there

I miss him

Only one day and my heart is burning from an undescribing pain.. I cry thinking of him and remembering his scent, touch and the height of his head on my chest.

Where are you ?

Why did I do that ?

Can you forgive me ?

The next night, 10pm in the dark bedroom

2 days I did not see you my gulf. Where are you ?

I feel desperation inside me. I regret so much this live who change my life. I though I have everything in my hand, the success, the love of you life and a future all path.. and in one second everything blowed away and I did not even realized I had all I ever wanted.

Flashback

I recalled this moment, I was tired because of my packed schedule, the MC was fun and I was laughing, missing Gulf but everything felt apart when he keep throwing jokes that my baby said to me yesterday, and my head felt on his lap. At this moment, when I felt my body going on his side, I knew it was not good. I prayed gulf will not watched the live, or he is watching all my live at night to know when I finish my schedule to prepare my night meal..

I started to realized the MC next to me was not gulf, and I checked my phone and saw a text from gulf :

My love: « i am a joke to you..? »

My love : « how can you do that on a live when we talk about our future last night.. why do you act with this man like if you were single ? »

My smile slowly left my face and is replace by a business smile. Still 30 minutes to finish this live.

30 minutes later at home

My hands was trembling as I pressed our condo's code to enter inside, gulf did not answer any of my phone calls on my way home. I entered and said « Babe, i am home ». No answer the apartment is dark. My voice was trembling, I open the living room light and walk to our bedroom « P'Gulf ? ». I come back to the dining room and see a note on the table :

« This is your late diner »

There is a plate with my favourite meal, and a glass of water with a note too :

« I need time to think »

I feel the guilt inside me, usually if we have a discord, we will talk about it, fight, cry , smile, make love and cuddle like if the world will stop tomorrow. But I went too far tonight, I got scared of the situation. Everything was going to fast, the revelation at the destiny clinic event where I said I had the dowry and gulf looked at me with his puppy eyes. I know he is waiting for me to propose, he gave me hints when we passed in front of a wedding last week, when we rehearsed TTTS wedding scene. We talked a lot and he was looking at me with his exiting eyes and passion. I know he is the love of my life and without him I will not be able to wake up every morning and embrace life like I did for the last 2 years.

But I screwed, I fucked up.

I ate the precious meal he prepared and almost chocked while I swallow because of my tears drowning slowly on my cheek.