Heartstopper oneshots <3

1: breakdown

tw: breakdown
words: 1091

Charlie laid in his oddly cold bed, scrolling through his Instagram feed. He wasn't sure why but his anxiety had been at an all time high that day, his leg was bouncing uncontrollably at school and Nick even pointed out that he was shaking in form. He didn't know what was wrong, all he knew is that he wanted to feel okay, feel normal.

He came across Nick's Instagram post, he noticed it was only posted a few minutes ago. It was a photo of Nick with his friends at a park. Nick was smiling widely with his arm around a guy Charlie only vaguely recognized. He didn't know many of Nick's friends, only the ones that picked on him in year 9. He frowned when he saw Harry and Ben in the background. He knew he shouldn't let the people Nick hangs out with affect him, but it wasn't exactly the easiest thing to ignore. He had been having a hard time accepting himself lately and he's been thinking he's just an annoyance to everyone in his life, including Nick.

Out of nowhere, Charlie began sobbing violently. He put his phone down onto his bed and placed his hands on his chest, rubbing at it to attempt to calm himself. When that tactic didn't work, he sat up and leaned over, placing his head into his hands. He tried to take deep breathes, but that only made it worse as he choked on the air he was breathing in.

Breathing got harder and he was choking on his sobs. Charlie quickly picked up his phone and called Nick.

After only a few rings, Nick picked up.

"Hey, Charlie," Nick said, his voice soft and welcoming.

"N-Nick?" Charlie sobbed.

"Oh, Char. What's wrong?" Nick asked softly.

"C-Can't breathe," Charlie gasped out. "N-Need you."

"Okay honey, I'm on my way, okay? I'll be about 5-10 minutes. Hang in there," Nick said. Immediately, Charlie heard the muffled sound of running. "Deep breaths for me, okay?"

Charlie took in a shaky breath before he choked on another sob and began violently sobbing again.

On the other end of the line, Nick felt his heart break at the sound of his boyfriend's sobs. He heard the faint shouts of his mates behind him, but he didn't care about them right now. All he cared about was getting to his boy.

*at charlie's*

Only a few minutes later, Nick arrived at Charlie's house. He bursted into the door, only to be met by a startled Tori.

"Where's Charlie?" Nick asked.

"In his room, why? Is everything okay?" Tori asked.

"No, Charlie's having a breakdown," Nick explained. Tori just nodded.

"Give him a tight hug, I'll start making brownies."

Nick nodded before kicking off his shoes and running up the stairs. He opened Charlie's door and found the small boy curled up on the floor, leaning against his bed.

"Charlie," Nick said softly, sitting down next to him. He pulled the younger boy into a hug and rubbed his back. "Hey, it's okay, I'm here."

Charlie grasped Nick's shirt like his life depended on it. He tucked his head into his shoulder and sobbed into his blue hoodie.

"Take some deep breaths okay? In and out," Nick said softly, taking a few deep breaths for Charlie to follow. Charlie tried to follow along, and after a few attempts his breathing began to steady. Charlie nuzzled his head further against Nick's neck, causing the older boy to hold him tighter. He ran his fingers through Charlie's hair and placed a kiss on his shoulder. "Do you want to talk about it?"

Charlie shrugged.

"I don't know," Charlie answered. Nick pulled away from the hug and smiled softly at Charlie.

"Okay, that's fine," Nick said softly. "But I'm here whenever you're ready." Charlie nodded with a sad smile. Nick stood up and grabbed a tissue from Charlie's desk before sitting back down next to him. He gently wiped the tears away from Charlie's face then smiled at him. "You're so beautiful, even when you're crying."

Charlie smiled and looked down at his lap.

"You're just trying to make me feel better," he mumbled. Nick gently pulled his head up and made eye contact with him.

"No, I'm just telling the truth. You are the most beautiful person on this planet."

Charlie blushed and shoved his face back into Nick's neck. "Don't be embarrassed Char, your rosy cheeks are adorable."

Charlie giggled softly, causing Nick to smile. Charlie pulled away from the hug and leaned his head on Nick's shoulder, so both of their backs were rested against his bed. Nick connected their hands on his lap and gently squeezed Charlie's.

"Sometimes I think too much," Charlie whispered.

"What do you mean?"

"I think your life would be better without me, or that Tao, Elle, and Isaac would be happier without me in their lives. Like you or Tao wouldn't be getting into fights with Harry if it weren't for me. Elle and Isaac wouldn't have to put up with all of my problems that I complain about. I know it's not true, but my brain just never shuts off," Charlie explained.

"Thank you for being honest," Nick replied. "But, first of all, that was one fight, and Harry was asking for it. Second of all, your friends love you so incredibly much, they care so deeply about you, anyone can see that. Lastly, I love you. You are my entire world Charlie, I don't know what I'd ever do without you. I don't care about getting into fights with Harry or arguing with my mates if it means I get to be with you. I never want you to think that you're a burden in my life," Nick said softly. Charlie pulled away from Nick and looked up at him. They made eye contact for a moment before leaning in and connecting their lips. The kiss was short and sweet, but it still took their breath away, just like they did to each other every second of every day.

"I love you too," Charlie whispered. Nick smiled and squeezed his hand again.

"Tori's making brownies, wanna go help?" Nick asked. Charlie nodded and got up quickly, his hand still in Nick's. They ran downstairs hand in hand, laughing the entire way.

When they got to the kitchen Tori walked over to them and hugged Charlie tightly.

"You okay?" Tori asked.

"I'm fine," Charlie replied. Tori pulled away and smiled.

"Right then, who's helping with the brownies?"

•a/n•
Hello everyone! This is my first heartstopper oneshot! Feel free to leave requests, I only ask that you try not to make them too triggering just for the safety of others who are going to read your comment! There will always be trigger warnings at the top of comments so please don't read the oneshot if you feel you will be triggered. Stay safe loves <3

Also, I'm not British so if I use the wrong slang or word for something please feel free to let me know! These oneshots will be based off of a mix of the show and the books so everyone can enjoy them!

I hope you enjoy <3