PARTNER•J.B.Barnes

03

Becca:

I laid in bed all avoiding Bucky not really knowing what to say to him. I can't believe he would say that to me, after he was the one who held my shaking body after the guards did what they did. I sigh feeling my stomach rumble once again, i go to my phone and look for Steve's number. "Hey", he says breathing heavily. "Is he with you?", i ask referring to Bucky. "Yeah", he says trying to not make it obvious to Bucky we were talking about him. "I want to go make a baguette and grab some snacks. Keep him there for another ten minutes or so please", i say and Steve gives me a mhm in response. I hang up and go to the kitchen.

I quickly make a baguette with ham, lettuce and tomatoes in. I grab a few packets of crisps and sweets for later. I bend down to the freezer to grab ice cream just as i do i hear the lift ding. I curse under my breath hoping it wasn't him but to my disappointment it was. He got a glass of water and kept his eyes on me the whole time but i didn't give him a second glance. I plated the food up and put all the crisps and sweets in a plastic bag to put in my room.

"We need to talk", Bucky speaks up just as i make it to the hallway. I bite my lips so fucking hard i think i drew blood. "I don't care what you have to say, the only one reason i ever want to hear your name again is to hear your fucking dead", i say calmly he almost looked shocked at how i held my anger together so well. "I don't need your bullshit anymore, i won't be staying here much longer. I'm planning on either moving to another floor and bunking with one of the girls or simply getting my own place. OR i can sleep on the couch in the common area. Anything is better than this", i finish pointing to the kitchen and around it. I sigh and walk off to my room but i hear him following me.

I quickly shut my door but not quick enough. "Why did you call Steve?", he asks and i scoff flopping down on my bed head first wishing he would go the fuck away. "Why?", he presses but i just concentrate on breathing since it's getting a little difficult. "Because i like him and i can call him whenever i want, that was the whole point of getting his number", i said in a duh tone. His once soft face turned into a pretty pissed off one. What now? How is he pissed i have his best friends phone number.

"What?", i ask and he stares at anything but me, "you and him?", he asks slowly and i look at him confused. Then i get it, i said i like Steve...so Bucky must think i like LIKE Steve. "I mean he isn't bad to look at...and the muscles are just amaze", i say fake fan girling over Steve like so many people do on the internet. Bucky is at my bed side in seconds, his metal hand placed securely around my throat. I was sat up on the bed as he stood above me. "But would you let him fuck you?", Bucky says so low i barely heard it.

"Why do you want to know?", i ask smirking, i feel his hand get tighter but not so tight to cut off air. "Because if you think anyone can fuck you but me your deadly wrong", he says pushing me down my throat and leaving. Slamming the door throws me out my thoughts as i sigh loudly, i reach down to my panties and feeling them soaked. I groaned and went into my bathroom. I started the shower and slowly stepped in, i washed my skin and hair before stepping out.

I wiped the mirror with my hand and my eyes instantly land on my neck, it's all bruised as if i had been in a fight. Shit they're gonna kill Bucky when they see this. I get dressed in a oversized shirt, i decided against wearing panties and instead put a thong on. I walked into the kitchen and saw Bucky reading in the living room which you could see right into as there was no wall. I could feel his eyes on me as i leaned up to get a bowl. I bend down to get a cup but feel someone behind me. "Did i hurt you?", he whispers sadly looking at my neck as i turn around. I shake my head and whisper, "no", before placing the box of cereal on the side. "I hate you for wanting Steve", he says roughly.

"I hate you for saying what you said last night", i spit right back making distance between us. "You knew that would hurt but you said it either way, and i wasn't a slut because it was rape. I didn't sleep around to get better treatment, it was their punishment for me being so weak and being protected by you...they did it to me because you wouldn't stop protecting me. THEY THOUGHT WE WERE TOGETHER! So they fucking raped me, after how many times did i tell you to stop taking the beating for me but you still did it. It ended in me having more damage to my body than a beating with some whips could ever do", i say raising my voice. He stands there dumbfounded.