Feelings

Lonely...

Loneliness- A state of being alone and feeling sad about it..

Sitting here in the corner of my room, isolated from the world,

Uninvited thoughts make their way,

Slowly, but painfully, clawing my hearts out.

Tearing me apart.

They have nowhere else to go,

Just like ME.

Killing me from inside,

Like My LONELINESS.

I feel them hurting.

The feelings not exactly pleasant.

I hear them whispering.

The whispers not exactly encouraging.

They do not go away.

Not until I'm lonely.

Not For Ever.

They Return.

With the worst ways than the previous time.

With the worst timing than the previous.

But Every time, leaving the same amount of Pain.

They arrive when Its not needed.

They arrive when I'm in a crowd.

Making me feel alone.

Missing someone who doesn't exist.

Wishing for someone to hold my hand.

For someone to make me feel less lonely.

For someone to love me and take the Loneliness away.

For someone, who doesn't exist.

They arrive when I'm Alone.

Making me sad about being alone.

"You don't have anywhere to go"

"You don't have anyone to love you"

Making me wish for someone to love me.

Wish for someone to understand me.

For someone to make me less sad.

It's not that they don't love me.

It's not that they don't try to understand me.

It's not that they don't try.

Then why does it feel like that?

Why does it feel like I'm stuck in a cave?

Where there's no light, no way to escape.

Why does it feel like I'm stuck here forever?

Why does it seem like Nobody can help me?

Why does it feel like Nothing can make me happy anymore?

Why?!

Questions without answers.

Feelings without Reasons.

Conclusions without Meanings.

Blind me, Terrify me.

From the truth.

From the Reality.

Many worse things to feel.

Many worse to experience.