Most painful Love

chapter 1

When I could no longer hear any noise I began to feel scared. I sat on the floor while my whole body was shaking.

I did everything to prove myself to you that I can stay with you no matter how hard it is just to be with you.

But why did I get into this situation?

If I only knew .... If I only knew that this is what I would experience when I love you. I shouldn't have loved you anymore. I shouldn't marry you anymore.

When I turned 18, our parents tied us into a situation where we had to marry each other.

I was okay with it though, it feels like I just won a huge price. I really admire Laster, to the point that I fell to his trap.

I am now 19 and we've been together for a year. We were married secretly. No one knows except our family. Even my friends don't know that I am already a married woman at this age.

I am still a student, we have the same school but we are not in the same class. He is in college and I am in senior high. I stopped studying because I had heart surgery three years ago.

I have a weak heart, and I don't know that the person I love will break the heart I care for.

I regret loving a ruthless man, I regret loving you Laster Haze Vicser. I hope it's not just you I love.

If it was easy to take away my love for you, I would have done it a long time ago. Case very difficult. Very difficult.

I was shaking and hugging my two knees while crying. I don't want to cry but I can't help it. I don't want to experience the pain I suffered before again.

Just a little patience Chzean, just a little patience. And when my endurance is over, I will stop. Even if it hurts, I will stop you, I will free myself from you.Chzean's POV:

I woke up to the sunlight that landed on my face from my bedroom window. Is this real? Am I in the bedroom?

Was it just a dream that happened last night?

"Arrghh" I immediately touched my head because of pain that I wish I hadn't done. The pain of my scalp sh*t

"Get up and fix yourself. If you want malate 'don't feel sorry." I immediately looked where the voice came from. I saw him turn to the side of the door as he turned to dust.

He's already wearing his uniform. There is still nothing new, he is still handsome even if he looks ugly.

After he said that he suddenly turned his back on me.

I went off my bed and walked straight to my bathroom.

What's up? It seems like last night he was furious and now argh never mind. He is always like that. You just get used to Chzean.

After taking a bath, I quickly put on my uniform and went to my vanity table. I need to cover my bruises, I put concealer on the side of my lip. Laster slapped me the other day so it was too obvious if I didn’t cover up. I don't want them to ask where I got it. It's a good thing my eyes aren't too swollen.

Today is monday, and we need to get in early. I ran to where my husband was. I found it in the living room while talking on my cellphone.

"U-uhm Laster, Let's go" I stammered, he walked first and he didn't even look at me. As usual.

I could hardly breathe properly because it was so quiet in the car until we reached the school "Act like we're strangers D'vour, don't try to approach or talk to me if you don't want to ruin my image. " its reminder before getting out of the vehicle.

You don't need your reminder every day because I already know that.

"Thank you Berto for taking us. Be careful back, I'm leaving." I said goodbye to him and he smiled at me in response.

I didn't see my husband anymore because I'm sure he's in his group now. Yes I am still claiming him as my husband, we are married even on paper and even if I turn everything upside down he is still my husband.

"Give me that!" I was surprised when he grabbed my sling bag

"What the-" I sighed at him but he suddenly walked first with my sling bag

"Eazer give me back my bag!" I shouted but he ignored me so I chased him.

"Don't run Zean lest you fail."

"Tsk! Don't make me like that Eazer I'm not crippled, besides I'm not weak." I laughed at it but he just laughed at me.

"I'll take my princess" I glared at her "Just a joke, this is so early in the morning you're so rude, let's go to the cafeteria. I know you, if you behave like that, you won't be able to eat yet." I stopped walking, didn't I? I forgot to have breakfast because I was in a hurry, why am I awake so late.

I smiled at his offer "Okay as long as you're free."

"Of course you're strong for me" I nodded and we went to the cafeteria.

There weren’t too many people inside the cafeteria because it was still early, I was surprised when I saw Laster’s group.

"Wait me here, I'll order. What would you like to eat?"

"Sandwich and water will do." I said after sitting down, Laster's gaze couldn't escape our behavior.

"That's all?" I just nod at him "I'm on a diet" my simple language he just nodded at me and left to order the truth is I have no appetite

College students have their own cafeteria. What the hell are they doing here?

"Babe Haze!" the caterpillar's hand wrapped around my wife's arm.

I secretly smiled at my hand. He didn't even push the woman away and in front of me they would really flirt

"Hey Zean are you okay?" Eazer asked worriedly. I didn't realize that he had finished ordering

"Y-yeah I'm okay" I smiled at him and he put down what he ordered.

Ten minutes had passed and Eazer and I just laughed, Laster's presence didn't bother me.

I checked my phone and it was close to 8 so we had to go to our class.

"Tara na Eazer baka ma late tayo"

"Oum I'll take care of your bag" I forgot that he still had my bag, I didn't complain anymore because he wanted it.

We stood together while he was carrying my bag. We were about to leave when suddenly someone hit Eazer's shoulder and he walked away with his friends.

"What the hell, since he's a senior he's going to beat us up?" I immediately took it away

"Eaz, let's go" I urged him as he would follow it.

"Hey where are you from and are you together at this time?" Qessei teased as we entered the room.

Yeah Eazer is one of my classmates and he's also one of my best buddy.

"Can't we just go together? This is Qessei who is immediately given meaning." Zhyller winked at Eazer, I looked at him and he just pulled me to my desk and handed me the bag.

"You brought the bag huh?" Vevianna replied, shouting even more at our classmates.

"Hey uhooo Chzean blu-blushhhh ayiieee" huh? what? I immediately looked at Yshia.

"I'm not blushing Yshia shut up!"

'Stop me because I'm married.' I want to say but I can't.

So I just stared at them.

"Just ignore them" I turned to the one next to me

"I won't set you free if you still tempt Zean" he threatened so they immediately fell silent. But the teasing did not disappear from their faces.

Those who are foolish will be strong enough to talk for free.