The West Ally Way

This is not real, this can't be real, this is dream, my body is waiting for me to wake up, this can't be happening.
my mind races with thoughts making there own thoughts up. I am two separate people right now, old me would of turned away from this months ago. maybe even before it started, but it's too late now, i have to do this. I warned them that if they hurt Lewis i will hurt them, and classic me expected them to get scared and not do anything.
i'm so stupid
i'm so dumb
this is my fault
lewis is hurt
i have no idea what i'm doing
The rage and fear mix together to make some awkward and new emotion that i have never felt before, it makes this heavy and sick feeling in my stomach almost like it's expanding and crying for help and for me to stop.
'I have to do this' i think to myself, but it's no use, i'm still scared shitless.

I wasn't supposed to be dragged into all this, i just wanted money. so I sold some weed, that's all i had to do to ruin it all, i got involved with the wrong people. I knew they were bad people, i should of never gave it to them. They asked for more so i gave the last of it, all this for a hundred quid.
maybe I should of charged them more, who knows how many cards or figures I could of got off that.
A car dives past and fixes my mind to the task at hand.
fuck.
How'd I let some guys a year older than me exploit me like this. How'd I just let them do this without doing anything, I could of just gave it to the guys lewis told me to give it too, but i didn't and now i'm here in the middle of the street making my way to a ally with a knife in my pocket for protection. Now i'm about to fight a guy who has probably brought more guys who are going to jump me. I wish I could just be back at home, back before all this, having a sleepover with lewis, Kenny and Scott, eating pizza and watching random dumbass horror movies. Kenny and Scott made the right choice not getting involved with this. They both said it was stupid and there parents would kill them if they found out. That was partially right, if my mum and dad found out my head would be on a stick right now. Even if they wanted to join in I can't let them, Lewis has already been jumped. Its gone too far now.

"Yo Jay, what's going on bro"
Fuck. It's Scott,
"you good Jay, you look like you've seen some old women naked or something"
"haha, yeah man don't worry. i'm just doing something right now so i'll catch you later"
I need to calm myself down right now, if there's one thing i've learned in my three years of knowing scott, it's that nothing gets past him.
"listen man I know somethings wrong, cause you never do anything unless it's buying those dumbass figures" scott says, he sounds concerned.
I need to think of something right now.
"i said i'm fine man, i'll catch you later"
i walk away and pray that he doesn't follow me, the ally is way too close for Scott to be here right now.
"I know this has something to do with The West Ally gang, i'm not stupid, and also Lewis can't keep secrets"
The name of the gang gives me a shiver, I don't want to hear those three words for a long time.
"It has nothing to do with that, now go away" I try to take the fear out my voice, but I can't.
"I'm going with you, you know how much I care about all use so I'm not letting you and lewis getting jumped in the space of two days" Scott always knows how to put authority in his voice, like he makes the rules.
"if you come, it'll be three of us getting jumped in the space of two days" I final say, my throat makes it hard for me to pronounce every syllable of that sentence.
"I am coming"
"no you're not, go home man"
"I can't i've lost my keys again and I want you to be safe dude"
"I am safe"
"The knife in your pocket isn't going to do anything either, you and me both know that you won't use that"
Fuck he seen the knife. Is it that noticeable?
"how do you know i'm not going to use it" I know i'm not going to use it, i'm just trying to waste time. I notice that Scott is looking behind me, i don't know how long he has been but I am 99% sure I know what's behind me.

"You took your time getting here didn't you"
One of the gang members says, the balaclava on his face makes his voice hard to hear. There's five of them, the terror in Scotts eyes makes me want to cry.
why did it have to be me.
Scott try's to make disguise his fear by standing his ground
"you won't do shit, you're a bunch of pussies hurting kids younger than you" he says
I want to tell him to shut up or make him disappear but i can't, I physically can't say anything
"You're new" says another gang member, the tallest one, "what should we do with them boys"
I want to run, but if i run they might hurt me more.

They all look at eachother. Almost like they decided what to do in there minds. They grab Scott and everything goes in slow motion, Scott tries to fight but it's useless. I feel the tight grip of a arm, the amount of force it has me by is enough to break my arm in two pieces. They drag us towards the West Ally Way. Scott is still fighting, no one is around, no one can hear Scott's shouts for help.

They throw us into The West Ally Way, my head hits the ground hard.
Fuck.
I'm on the floor.
I can't do anything.
I feel a kick land on my stomach and it knocks me more sick than I already was. Scott is still trying to fight back but the kicks are making him more and more weak to the point he can't fight back.
The kicks hit everywhere
stomach
stomach
face
chest
chest
chest
face
face
back of head
stomach
face
Suddenly they all stop. Is it over? I glance around The West Ally Way. The knife fell out my pocket, shit.
"So you want to play it like that now kid" Says the tallest one,
The fear consumes me, Scott looks at me with his blood almost masking his face.
why the fuck did i bring that knife.
The tallest one picks up the knife, he points it at me, then scott, then me, then scott, then me, then scott. He pauses on scott, i watch a single tear leaves scott's eye. We all know what's about to happen. Me, Scott, the gang. I watch the tallest one pick up scott and pin him to a wall
"please, you don't have to do this, i'll stay out your way, i'll get you everything you need if you want that instead" Scott pleads and pleads for mercy
The knife strikes him right in the chest, where his heart would be.

I watch the life leave his eyes.

They all run away, and I scream and scream but i've been battered too much. my voice hurts, my eyes hurt to keep open, all I can do is watch him fall to the ground.