The West Ally Way

The aftermath

I reached for my phone out my pocket, Scott's lifeless body watches me as I try to find Kenny's contact in my phone. I based his contact name after south park, because one of the characters is called Kenny, I search dead kid in my contacts and call it. Lewis picks up the phone
"yo, yo what's happening J-boy" Lewis' voice is so refreshing
"Lewis, come to the west ally, as soon as you can" I choke on every word
"Why what's happening, i'm getting Kenny now"
"just come as soon as you can" I cry, I tried so hard not to,
"What's happening" the worry in Lewis' voice makes me cry more
"Just come as fast as you can" I hang up the phone and cry, i cry as hard as i can.
It's all my fault
why did i bring that knife
"HELP, PLEASE" I shout through The West Ally Way. I pray for someone to find me and Scott,
but no one answers
I shout more, I shout louder
but no one hears me.
I hear footsteps, I shout more. It's a man, in his mid thirties maybe. He has a stubble and he's quite muscular, the blood covering my eyes make it hard to see any other details. The man rushes over.
"Are you ok? what happened? is he ok? who did this?"
the questions make me feel dizzy, I answer him with my tears. He pulls up his phone and dials a number that I assume is the police, I want to look at Scott but my body doesn't let me.

I hear sirens, it's about time, they took at least twenty five minutes to get here. Scott is definitely dead now. Along with the sirens I hear Kenny and Lewis talking, It sounds like they're running but there's a buzzing in my ears. The police arrived, they don't think they just act. Kenny and Lewis turn into The West Ally Way, the police tell them to back away. They stood there as the police picked me and Scott up, they don't look sad, i don't even know how they look, I don't know if it's the blood or not but they're experiencing something I know I never have.

I wake up in the hospital, I don't even remember getting here. I look around, it's very bright, Is it the next day? was all that yesterday?
A doctor walks in, he has glasses and short brown hair. He's very lanky too, he looks like the type of person who would do no harm to anyone.
"you had a good sleep" he says with a smile,
I know he's trying to lighten the mood, but there's no point.
"where's scott" I snap at him, I feel bad now
"we'll talk about Scott and your friends later buddy, first we need to focus on you" he says, maintaining his smile. 
maybe i'm dreaming right now.
"was all that yesterday"
"yes, you're safe now, don't worry"
his attempt at reassurance doesn't work.
"where is Kenny and Lewis" I splutter out
"they're in the waiting room little man, don't worry about them, first your parents want to see you"
shit. They're going to kill me. This is all my fault, they'll never forgive me.
The doctor leaves, as soon as he makes his way out the door my mum comes rushing in, my dad follows behind. My mum is crying while my dad isn't, my dad has always held it together, but I can tell his just bearly holding it together this time.
My mum hugs me, it hurts but the warmth of the hug is worth the pain. She cries while she holds me, my dad watches.
"Are you ok" she cries
"i'm getting there" I joke, I know i'm the victim in the room right now but it looks like my mum is more of one
"you don't have to tell us about it today, today you can do what you want" She says, no longer crying but the tears still falling. My dad still watches, he doesn't know what to say.
"I want to go home" I'm trying so hard not to cry, if there was a competition for holding back tears. I would win
"I know but you have to stay here for a bit" my dad final speaks, of all the words he could say, those ones aren't the ones I wanted to hear.
"where is scott, is he ok?" I ask, I need an answer.
"He is in the hospital with you, the floor above you"my dad speaks again
"is he ok?" I already know the answer to this question.
my mums face gets more sad then it already is
"he's hanging in there kiddo" my dad stutters
"so he's still alive"
Please tell me he is.
"yes but he's just about alive" I can tell my dad didn't want to say what he just said
i am relived by the fact he's still alive but i'm more sad, now that I know he's went though all that pain, he had to feel it all.
"Scott's a strong kid though Jay, I know he'll make it" my dad says, he's trying to be hopeful, it doesn't work.
There's silence, too much off it. It's killing me.
"Can I see Lewis and Kenny" I finally say
"of course you can kiddo" my dad says, it's making me angry at how happy he's trying to be. They both leave, the peace in the room is almost unsettling. I don't want to be by myself for too long in this hospital.

about two or three minutes later, Kenny and Lewis both walk in. They sit down on the chairs next to my bed
why has no one else sat in those chairs so far?
"what happened" Kenny says,
"yeah i'm fine" I say sarcastically
Kenny looks down, I know he's pissed off because he's Kenny but he's trying to hide the sadness, I can see the defeat in his eyes. He has dark green eyes, they always look so threatening, but not this time. The sorrow he's feeling has almost changed the appearance of his eyes completely
"i'm sorry we couldn't get there in time" Lewis says, the guilt in his voice sounds like it's choking him.
I did this
I ruined all of my friends
"I didn't mean for-"
"Well it happened Jay" Kenny interrupts
we all grow silent again.
"tell us what happened Jay or i'm going home" Kenny says, he's almost crying now.
"they attacked us" I almost whisper
"with a knife?" Lewis says, he is trying to keep calm but it's not working
"well like, kinda" I say
"what do you mean 'kinda'" Kenny questions, he's pissed off again
"it was my knife" my throat won't let me say anything without whispering, we all go silent again. I can't handle the silence, it's like it's ripping me apart.
"what do you mean, it was your knife" Kenny sounds like he's in pain as he says this. A single tear emerges from his eye, I watch if slowly slither down his face.
"I brought it as self defence, I went to go meet the guys that jumped Lewis" I spit it out, I close my eyes. I don't want to see there reactions.
"Stan seen me out, he wouldn't let me go" I keep my eyes closed. "He followed me and wouldn't leave, and then, they found us" I cry as I say this, I can't hold it back anymore. I don't want to think about what happened, but I know i'm going to have to for a long, long time.
"He didn't want any part in this man" Kenny sounds like he's been beat up too.
"I know" I say so silently i'm surprised they heard me say it.
I open my eyes again, Kenny is crying and lewis has his head in his hands. This is the worst i've seen them, I need to think of something to say.

"i'm sorry" I say at last, I feel like I should be saying this too Scott more than them though. the word 'sorry' fills the room, they won't look at me.
"it's ok," Lewis replies, he looks up at me finally. Tears filling his eyes, he puts his hand on my shoulders. He smiles at me, and somehow, I smile back.
A doctor enters the room, a different doctor to the last one. we all look and stare at him, he looks back at us with an confused expression. Then he looks at his clip board,
"i'm sorry mr. Daniel but you have two weeks to live" The doctor says apologetically.
"my names Jay"
the doctor looks back at his clip board and then rushes out. We all laugh and I finally feel some form of relief,
"what a dumbass man" Kenny laughs, it makes me happy to see him not pissed at me
"dude didn't even apologise or anything he just left" Lewis says, the tears become tears of happiness.
"I was questioning my own name then" I add on, we all laugh together and forget about the situation for a few minutes.