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Love The Way You Lie

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WARNING
This chapter contains very sensitive contents (domestic abuse) so please please please read with caution . This one is pretty long

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I Hate You

I told myself that every day hoping one day that I'd gather enough courage to say it to your face, but I can't. I Love you too much to even say no to you, not just that...but you're way stronger than me. You take my love for you, for granted, you blame everything bad on me, you don't love me, I know that yet I still love you.

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"BADELL! Get your lazy ass up" you yanked the comforter off of my body and slammed the large bedroom door closed on your way out.
I made my way off the king-size mattress picking the blanket up off the floor; ignoring my headache from the day before

I dug into my clothing bin and pulled out a fresh shirt and leggings hoping you were in a better mood and wouldn't make me change into a pair uncomfortable jeans, I just wanna relax today but knowing you that's more than likely not gonna happen.

As I made my way downstairs I smelled something nice, you had made breakfast....my stomach jumped a bit at the remembrance of your parents are visiting; every time your parents come to town to check up on us you treat me like a queen, the complete opposite of any other day.

"Jennie! It's lovely to see you again"

"Good morning, it's great to see you too Mrs. Badell" I gave her a nice long hug enjoying every second of it. You never hug me like this anymore so the least that I could do was enjoy the few hugs that I do get

Pulling away but keeping her hands on my arms your mother pitches "oh honey you know you can call me Mom". Your mother walks back over to the dining table and sits next to Mr. Badell

I take a deep breath and hesitantly walk over to you, who's frying sausages I reach up and kiss your warm cheek deciding that it's safe to be a bit bold since your parents are here and you wouldn't be able to do very much.

"Good morning hun" I gave you a small smile while sniffing the air "It smells amazing in here"

You give me a half-assed smile and said "Thank you" before looking back down at the sausages you were frying

Before walking away I decided 'why not tease you a bit'
Your parents are here so you can't do anything; I give you a soft tap on the butt. You jumped, whipping around to face me with your hand in the air ready to slap me but instead, you looked up remembering your parents are there, and brought your hand down, and grabbed my arm dragging me out of the kitchen and into the hallway completely disregarding the fact that the sausages were probably burning

You pushed me into the wall gripping my arms by my side; you learned closer to my ear and whispers "just because my parents are here doesn't mean you may do as you please" you pretty much hissed into my ear, fear settled itself into my stomach, I knew I had made a huge mistake how could I be so stupid, I never act like this especially since I knew the consequences, I mentally slapped myself. You being so close to me filled me with so much anxiety I could throw up, I was surprised when I managed to let out a small "o-ok" "I can't hear you?!" "Y-yes ma'am!" I whisper yelled feeling the tears swell up in my eyes "and don't even think about fucking crying" you glared at me before plastering on a fake smile and walking back into the kitchen I wiped my face feeling tears falling from my eyes and walked into the kitchen trying to pass it off as if nothing happened.

Your parents looked at us with genuine smiles on their faces, to them everything was 'okay'. I looked up from my plate of food smiling, making sure to savor every bite because I know for a fact that this would be the last thing I ate for a while

"Jennie honey are you okay?" My thoughts were cut short by Your mother, she noticed the upset look that I didn't realize I had on my face "She's fine don't worry about her mom" you bud in with a dull voice trying to wave me off but with no avail "oh hush, I'm sure she can speak for herself" she looked at me with a concerned look on her face making you narrow her eyes at me and mouth "you're fine" while furrowing your eyebrows "y-yes I'm fine" I answered trying to smile but failing, she looked at me with sad eyes clearly seeing that I'm not fine "are you sure Hun? Do you wanna talk about it?" Her sudden gentleness sorta caught me off guard, I'm not use to people actually carrying about me like this, all of that stopped when we got married. You cut off all contact to my family except for a few phone calls here and there so that they knew I was 'okay' but other than that all I have is you, you're the only one I'm allowed to see, talk to, touch.., I don't have any friends or family to care for me and I know damn well you don't care so when Mra.Badel showed that she was visibly concerned about me It was quite unusual for me but it felt good the same time. She indirectly showed me that I'm worthy of being cared for unlike the lies that you have drilled into my head.

"Yes ma'am don't worry about me" I topped off my lie with a painful smile.
"Alright honey if you say so" she gave me one last smile before continuing her conversation with you.

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We bid our goodbyes to your parents, it had been so long since I had company that wasn't yours so now that they're gone i was just awaiting whatever punishment that you had in store for me for almost breaking down in front of your mother

After you closed the front door I took a deep yet shallow breath, I could feel your gorgeous brown eyes burning holes into my skin, you didn't give me much time to gather myself as I felt an all too familiar harsh stinging pain appear on my cheek...you slapped me.. I put a hand on my cheek and looked down knowing that you were glaring down at me "look at me Jennie" I kept my head down trying to keep my tears from falling, you hate it when I cry, "I said, FUCKING LOOK AT ME JENNIE" your voice echoed through the hollow hallway. I slowly brought my head up and looked you straight in the eye. "Who in your RIGHT MIND gave you the idea that it's okay to fucking touch me? And then that sad shit you pulled in front of my mother, you'd be lucky if i didn't strangle you right here and now Jennie." your words hung in the air for a minute before I spoke knocking them down "I- um... I..." I couldn't get any words out you looked a lot more terrifying than usual, your face was as red and you looked as if you wanted to murder me... Well I guess that part wasn't unusual. You cut me off mid stutter with a laugh...you were.. laughing, not chuckling or giggling, but full on stomach clutching laughing. This scared me a lot more than your yelling I felt tears trickling down my face as you just stood there laughing as if someone just told you that they have eleven toes. "WHAT...IF.....THEY...TOOK YOU" you said between laughs making dread wash over me as you stopped your psychopathic laughter. "DO YOU WANT TO BE TAKEN AWAY FROM ME JENNIE? DO YOU?!" "You of all people know that I have a short tempter so what the hell has gotten into you?!" you screamed at me, I was in shock I couldn't even feel all the tears streaming down my face. I was brought back to reality as I felt you yanking me by my hair retracing the path to the "quiet place" A place that I was starting to get quite used to.

You threw me onto the ground and kicked me in the stomach. wrapping my hair up in your hand yet again you forced me to stand and look you in the eye "do you need some reminding on what happens when you disobey?' you slapped me again, harder this time I'm pretty sure it hurt you too. I fell to the ground a stinging headache slowly creeping onto me as you kicked me... over... and over again

You stopped your movements and just stared down at me but I didn't notice. Nor did I care, you could've continued and I wouldn't have acknowledged it. I just wanted to stop hanging on and just end it here waiting for my body to just let go and stop giving you the pleasure of hurting me. "Jennie?" I didn't respond, not that I didn't want to but I just couldn't . you realized that I wasn't answering you and bent down and held my face in your hands.

"JENNIE?" I felt my body start to be shaken but I didn't react to it, just laying there almost lifeless.

"JENNIE, princess, WAKE UP PLEASE" it sounded as if you were crying but I couldn't really tell, your screams started to muffle but I didn't want to leave you without saying anything so I left you with one thing

"I- I love y-you"

before everything finally went black...
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A/N

This one was extremely long, but please let me know if you enjoyed and leave any tips or suggestions you may have. Bye!