One Shots ~ Toxic Valentine

Jarina - Missing You

WARNING: CAN BE TRIGGERING

Karina's POV

Jack had left a few months ago to go on tour. I knew when I started dating him that he wouldn't be home often, but I never imagined missing him this much when he was gone. He was somewhere in Europe now, I had no idea where exactly because I didn't go on Twitter. Apparently there had been this girl he was talking to and people were tweeting me hate for not taking good care of him so he had to find another girl, and saying I wasn't good enough for him and asking if we broke up.

As far as I knew, we didn't but I didn't call him to ask because I was scared. What if he actually didn't want me anymore and preferred the other girl? I had stopped cutting for him, two years ago and since then I had tried to be strong and independent, but I still needed him so much.

So when I decided to open Twitter again and saw more people tweeting me about him having fun with another girl I just broke down. I started crying and I wasn't able to stop so to make sure I would stop being like this I stood up. I was worthless and I needed to cut again. Luckily, when I threw away everything with Jack I hid some of them in a secret spot in my room where he would never find them so I walked there and took them out.

I couldn't say I really missed them but I appreciated the sight of them at this moment. I needed this now. I wasn't good enough for Jack, he was perfect and I was this weak creature and I wasn't even able of doing anything right. Right when I made the first deep cut I heard a key in my front door and I immediately froze. Who could that be? I wasn't expecting anyone actually...

I quickly ran to the bathroom and hid my blades, and put my bleeding wrist under the water. The person that came in earlier was approaching and when I heard someone saying my name I froze.

"Kari? Are you here?" I heard a really familiar voice say. The voice just so happened to be of a really attractive, famous, maybe cheating, causing all of this, but still really beautiful guitarist. Jack. AKA my boyfriend. What was he doing here?

"Jack?" I asked, my voice slightly trembling. "What.. What are you doing here? Aren't you supposed to be whatever in France or something?"

He walked into the bathroom, he hadn't noticed the blood yet, which was good. "I am supposed to be in Germany with the other guys but we have our next show only Monday and it's Thursday now, and I missed you like hell so I decided to visit you" he smiled at me and I just stood there, nailed to the ground.

He walked over to me and wrapped his arms around me and I hesitantly did the same, but I hurt my wrist by hugging him back so I pulled back and he noticed. "Is there anything wrong Kari?" he said softly and ended up looking at my wrist. His eyes met mine but I quickly looked down, I felt guilty about it now.

He lifted me bridal style and took me with him to the bed and put me down again. "What happened, why did you start again?" he whispered. "Was it my fault?" I shrugged and looked away.

"You were with some other girl all the time and I was getting some hate and I just couldn't handle it anymore at that moment and I still had some blades left so I just.. I'm so sorry I'm worthless" That was the moment I started sobbing and he just pulled me in his lap and ran his hand through my hair to try to calm me down. When that didn't work he started rubbing my back and that worked a little bit, I calmed down and he looked at me.

"You just need to listen to me now baby... You are literally the most perfect person alive, you are everything but worthless, you are cute, beautiful, sweet, nice. You have a beautiful personality and you look so good. I can't be without you, I took an airplane here just to see your perfect face" he said to me and kissed me softly on my lips. "You want me to cheer you up? I have a guitar here somewhere.." he stood up to get it and sat down on the bed next to me and started to check if it was tuned, and after that he started strumming a pattern I didn't recognize, he didn't let me listen to any of the songs on the new album yet so I assumed it was .