Never been so broken

Same old

~Angelica's p.o.v~
Beep! beep! beep! I woke up by my alarm like I always do. This time I woke up early for the first time 6:00 .I got up and felt a sharp pain in my stomach. "Ouch" I yelled and my mom came into my room. "Hey sweetie are you okay what the hell is that on your stomach" my mom said almost yelling at me. "It's nothing mom I'm okay don't worry about it". I said trying to hide my bruise."angelica sky you better tell me what happened to your stomach or else!". My mom said yelling at me still."m m m m mom". I studered ( however you spell that lol) "Angelica I'm going to give you one last chance". "Well well ugh someone pushed me on the floor and kicked me". I said almost to quietly."who is this someone"?"ummm umm Jenny"." Well I have to talk to the principle about this". Shit shit that's not even a real girl I just made that up I can't tell her who really hit me he'll hit me again maybe even worse.i said in my head dozing off."hello earth to Angelica". my mom said trying to get my attention. "Um yes". I said getting back to earth."did u hear anything I said". "Yes mother I don't want to talk about this anymore".i said a little annoyed."okay and i have to go to work tonight so I won't be home tonight or in the morning". My mom said." Okay . My mom left my room and I decided to go on my computer. I got on Twitter and see some notifications most of them are mean.but i try to ignore them but I just can't it's to hard. I went to the bathroom looked at my self in the mirror and I seen an ugly fat girl. I locked the bathroom door.I looked under the sink and grabbed my razor and sat on the toilet seat and started slicing fresh cuts on my arm. "Fuck I screamed". I cut my self to deep."angelica are you okay up there".my mom said from her room."im okay". I stopped after 5 fresh cuts I grabbed a clean rag and put it over my cuts. It stinged like hell.i cleaned up and went to my closet to pick out a long sleeved shirt that has the blink 182 logo on it .with some ripped skinny jeans. ( FYI not the same ripped up skinny jeans)I put my hair up in a regular high ponytail. And put some white vans on.i went to the bathroom once again and I brushed my teeth and looked at my self once again.i sat on my bed and looked at the clock 6:30 I got at least 20 minutes. I laid on my bed thinking why my life is the way it is.then I wondered to my self at least It couldn't get worse right when I said that my phone ringed I looked at the bright screen it read Anna she was one of my bestie well to think about it she was my only friend. I was the school freak so no one actually talked to me. I picked up my phone.
"Hey".i said
"Hey wyd".anna said cheerfully
"Nothing much hbu". I said
"Well I'm actually hanging out with luke and I wanted to no if u wanted to hang out with us.anna said
My HEART DROPPED when she said that. Luke is one of calum's best friend. I thought in my head.
"Hello are you still there".anna said making sure I was still on the line.
"Yes I'm still here".i said
"Well do you want to hang out with us".anna said once again.
"No I'm fine". I said quick probably to quickly.
"Are you sure Angelica".anna said
"Anna I'm fine". I said.
"Well than okay goodbye and see you at school".anna said a little disappointed.
I hung up the phone.i haven't told Anna that calum's bullies me and beats me up. I can't tell her I can't tell no one. I can't trust anyone.i thought in my head. I looked at the clock and it was 7:30. I got my things and my car keys and walked down the stairs."bye mom".with that said I went to me car and left to school.i was driving looking for a parking spot when I heard something hit my car. I stopped and got out of the car and looked around.their I see thee Calum hood. "Ha ha sucker".calum said walking away. I got mad but I let it go like all the other times.i hoped back in my car.i found a parking space and I grabbed my stuff and started walking to the school building. I opened the front door when I heard someone yell. "ouch" I looked in front of me. "Omg I'm so sorry".i said to a random person that I couldn't see very well. "It's okay" someone said."hi I'm Derick by the way I'm the new kid you can say"."hi my name is Angelica I'm so sorry for hitting you with the door"."its okay don't worry about it"."well see you later".i said slowly walking away."hey can you tell me where the room 307 is".derick said walking towards me."yay sure that's my first period".i said.we both walked in first period.

~skip to after school~
"Ugh finally schools over".i stated to myself.i went to my locker and grabbed my stuff and was headed out the door when I heard someone yell my name.i looked back and seen Derick."hey wait up".he walked up to me. "so where do you live"."should I tell him". I said to myself.t"hats a secret"."well at least tell me if you live far"."i don't live that far from here"."well can I walk you home".derick said."i have a car but thank you".i kept on walking and I turned around to see Derick once again."i don't think you should talk to a freak like me".with that said I left.i went to my car and drove home. I parked my car in my drive way.i opened my house door and ran up to my room.i walked in my room and locked the door.i sat on my bed and started crying."why does this happen to me".then my eyes started getting heave and soon dozed off to sleep.ring ring I woke up and looked at my phone it was 12:00 midnight.
Unknown #: hi it's me Derick are you awake
Me: how did you get my number
Unknown #: this girl named Anna gave it to me is that bad if it's a problem I'll delete your # from my phone.
Me: no don't I don't mind you seem like a cool guy
Unknown #: and you seem like a cool girl
Me:me no way I'm a freak
Unknown #: why do you keep calling yourself a freak
Me:long story
Unknown #: I want to hear that long story please😬
Me: let's not talk about me anymore
Unknown #: so what do you want to talk about
Me:anything
~hours past(FYI time is now 2:00 am)Me:well goodnight 😌
Unknown #:goodnight 😋
I kept Derick as unknown # I don't know if I can trust him yet.After that I felt my eyes getting heavy and soon drifted off to sleep.