Dear diary

Why try?

5- 8 - 22

Dear diary,

Today was just like any other day-
wake up, go to school , sit in a class for 8 hours...
Then go home and repeat it over again but
I found a new quote that I like. If i'm being honest i relate to it a lot sadly.

"Even if we can't be
together in the end, I'm
still glad you were
apart of my life."

The truth is, yes I probably do like a boy that's in my grade but i won't admit it.
Why is that, you might ask,  well there are many reasons why but i'm going to be straight forward. He's not looking for a relationship at the moment, neither am I. I'm not the type of person that does relationships. I like being on my own, having fun and doing whatever. I'm also afraid to get my heart broken, I'd really like to avoid all of that pain.

School was a total bummer today, he wasn't there but his friend was. He came back after being MIA for a while. I had a hard time today, as I always do. At lunch, I was eating.. well, about to eat until my cousin commented on my food. I already have a problem with eating in front of people but he decided to make a rude comment on my food. I got uncomfortable and didn't feel like eating anymore, so I took my fruit cup and sat it aside. I threw the main food that i was supposed to eat away and just ate my fruit cup. That's how my lunch went.

Having anxiety, eating problems in-front of people, and social anxiety doesn't help when your at school. Especially when you almost have a anxiety attack in art class, that sucks. Yeah... that happen to me today also. So instead of being a smart person and asking to go to the bathroom, I decided to put my head down, put my airpods in and try to calm down. The good thing is that I almost had one but didn't actually have one.

My whole week was awful i'm hoping this next week will be better.

Writing again soon...

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