Dreams Come True ♥ [COMPLETED]

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"You will be just alright" you tried to keep this thought alive but it just wasn't working

In just 2 months a lot had happened the staff took away your vape which was very hard for you

You were banned from seeing shotaro to avoid any other potential rumors

And worst of all were everything people were saying about you not only fans but people in your company as well

It made your skin crawl in all unsatisfying ways as you were walking through the company today just trying to go to vocal practice

As jyp told you "just because you are off camera does not mean you can just chill you still have to attend dance practice and vocal practice to not lose it"

As you were walking to the door you saw your senior Jena

You looked at her with hopefully eyes as she just gave you a pitiful look mouth 'i'm sorry' and turning away

That was it, now you were spiralling with many malicious and distasteful thoughts about yourself you grabbed the door knob with shaky hands entering the room and your trainer was there

She looked at you with pity that's all it was now everyone looked at you with pity like you were some sad sorry case it was really getting on your nerves, yeah you fucked up doesn't mean they have the right to look at you like some pity party

Trainer: are you ready for the lesson dear ?

You nod your head clenching your fist in your pocket

"What doesn't kill you"

"Makes you wish you were dead"

"Got a hole in my soul going deeper and deeper"

"And I can't take...one more moment of this silence"

"The loneliness is haunting me"

"And the weight of the world's getting harder to hold up"

"It comes in waves, I close my eyes"

"Hold my breath and let it bury me"

"I'm not okay, and it's not alright"

"Won't you drag the lake and bring me home again ?"

You began singing and for once that whole week you felt all your worries drop to the floor for sometime you don't know what it was about the song you were singing this time but it really resonated with you

You were cut short as her phone ranging letting you know she was gonna take the call she told you to break

And so you did plopping on the seat and pulling out your phone and you don't know what in your right mind made you drag hour fingers across your screen to Instagram but you did

It was that same feeling that drawed you to Instagram drawing you to the comments under the last post you made about your apology and it made you sick to your stomach as tears streamed down your eyes immediately

[+67,-422] this is just so disgusting she is literally a disgusting pig and needs to leave the group

[+123,-29] I really just hope she is getting better mentally

[46+,57-] I honestly hope she d!es or something no one even likes her

[79+,120-] @/_shotaroo_ how could you get with such a disappointment you can do much better than that repulsive bit**

You immediately close your phone running out the room to the bathroom to yet again puke for the 3rd time this week

And maybe just maybe this time those fans were right the world just might be better off with you not in it

A/n: 💞💞💞 haha literally 1 more chapter left then it's done hopefully you liked this chapter and hope you have a good day or night 💞💞💞