Killing me softly (Sangwoo x Reader)

- 2

In the dark, without seeing each others faces; we continue to hug. Not saying a word or mentioning anything between us.

Why did I leave him? Was it by choice?

•••
- 2 years ago -

I remember rain... a lot of it. It was night and the parking lot was empty—like a ghost town. I remember walking back from the grocery store and seeing him waiting in the car. I remember the bright light shining on his face as he played on his phone.

I held grocery bags in both my arms, watching as he scrolled through his phone in the comfort of his car. It was a split second thought that managed to creep its way to the front on my mind.

What if I ran away? He finally allowed me to go out into the open with him...this is my chance.

I remembered vaguely, standing in the rain watching him, trying to make my decision for so long. The groceries were drenched it water as the time ticked by.

Not once did he look up, which meant he trusted me to return to him; but if I left, I would be free. I could run away and go back to a normal life.

It was at that moment I made up my decision. I dropped the grocery's and simply walked away; and I kept walking until someone on the road picked me up and took me back to my parents place on the other side of Korea.

I didn't think back to him; I didn't think about how he reacted to my disappearance, nor did I think about how it would make him feel...I just went blank and went back home to my parents.

Of course I knew he'd come searching for me, and my parents would be the first place to search. So I took the money from my parents and left...

I lived on my own in a semi-remote area and continued my life from there.

Did I regret leaving him? No
Did I miss him... I didn't know.

•••

I take my face away from his neck, and glided my lips towards his. Kissing him with the tears running through our lips.

I let my tongue slip into his mouth where he reacted and grabbed my hair, pulling me away from him.

"Agh!" I scream as the tension ripped at my head.

"You-fucking. Don't act like you can pretend nothing happened." He says, glaring down at me.

Those cold eyes I didn't realise I would miss so much. The roughness of his hands and the words he would spit at me. It was all so familiar that I found myself smiling.

Home...

I thought. Surprised that I even thought about it; until I began questioning the way I had been living for the past 2 years.

I didn't fit in anywhere. I wasn't able to laugh and squeal with excitement like the friends I had around me. I wasn't able to joke with them because I'd either wouldn't find their jokes funny or mine were too dark.

I just wasn't able to fit it, but when I'm with Sangwoo; I was me. I was comfortable around him more so then the people I had met.

Men couldn't please me the way he did, so my sexual life was ruined. The only person who can truly please me was him.

"S-Sangwoo. I'm glad to be home a-again." I say, his hand still jerking on my hair.