Awful Things.

Chapter 1: First Sight

       (What the character was wearing; A black shirt, fishnets, and a skirt, wearing platforms. ) 

Before going to school I got up. I looked in my mirror and looked at my sore eyes from the previous night of crying. My bipolar moods shift. I keep looking in the mirror I finally look away as I look at all my medicine bottles on my desk. I look at myself and stare into my own eyes seeing how both are different colors. One is black and one is Blue. I start doing my makeup, not doing too much but just my eyebrows and my eyelashes with a small wing. I then went through my closet and found my favorite black shirt that has holes, a pair of fishnets, and my black skirt with a chain on it. As I lay them on the bed I stare at them.

I hope this catches people's eye. Because if it doesn't I don't know what will.

As I slip on my fishnets, I can't help but notice a bruise on my knee from me skating for the last time in Ohio. Sometimes I don't understand. I'll miss it and miss my friends. But I will miss skating. As I finish getting changed I walked into the bathroom And started brushing my teeth thinking about what I'm going to do with my hair.

As I finally finished brushing my teeth, I looked at my hair. I decided I was just going to do my favorite sloppy bun.

"LEE are you ready?" my mom yells from the bottom of the steps. I walked down there.

"Yes, Momma I am ready to go," I spoke she glanced at me as she smiled at me. She knew I was somewhat goth. She didn't see me for my piercings or the way I dress. She is the only woman I would ever respect. I do have 3 other siblings. But they chose to be homeschooled. I'm the only sibling that is different. They all love color and love wearing color. I like wearing red, black, and some kind of neon color. They all prefer to stay in. While I like to stay out, getaway, stay away from home only because it makes me depressed. We moved here only 4 weeks ago.

My mother finally spoke "you look beautiful! Okay, let's get going I have work in an hour." She grabbed her keys and put on her shoes. I grab my bag and we both head out of the house closing the door behind me. We got in the car and 5 minutes later we arrived at my school.

I looked at my Mom and said" I love you momma ill text you if I get really bad anxiety" she looked at me.

"I love you too Lee. If you need anything call or text me" I nodded and got out of the car I walked up to the school and paused.

This is going to be a long day...

  As I was walking into school I kept looking around not the thing to make eye contact but also to try to catch someone's eyes. Only because it was the morning and I didn't know anyone. I just moved here from Ohio, specifically from Cincinnati. I and my Mom moved here only because of the fact, that in Ohio I had a bad reputation at the schools. I always got into fights and got expelled for all of them. But, not only that the police knew who my father was and therefore, knew who I was. He and I both look exactly alike, with almost the same birthmarks. So he pretty much ruined me over in Ohio, Not only the fact we look alike but also because of the fact he would get so drunk to the point where he would fight any and everything. That's who I got my anger issues from. Is Him. But as I was in my thoughts, walking to the office, listening to "Kill Yourself (Pt 3)"By $uicideboy$. As I walked into the office, I turned down my music and spoke to the lady at the front desk."Hey umm. I'm Leah, Love." I said shyly, and she spoke."Oh yes Leah, Love. Here's your paper and I'm going to need a parent's phone number" I nodded as she spoke and wrote down my mother's phone number.

 "Did you guys get my doctor's note?" I asked her.

"yes, Miss Love we did. There will be a teacher coming to get you at least once a week or month, She will help you and get you on the right page. Here is your schedule and it has the times. You have a great day Leah"I thanked her and walked away leaving the office. I started listening to "Your Favorite Dress" By Lil Peep and Lil Tracey, as I walked to my class, I was continuously looking at every door number as I mumbled to myself.

"506.... 505.. 504...... 503 that's where I am."I walked in and as I did everyone looked at me. But I tried my hardest to seem as if I was looking through everyone. The teacher looked at me and waved me over. As I headed over to the teacher's desk I almost tripped over someone's bag. I got over to the teacher as he looked at me with his brown eyes.

 "What is your name?' he said sounding super boring with no kind of emotion in his tone and no kind of emotion written on his face.

 "My name is Leah, Love," I told him just looking at him blankly. 

"O-okay so would you like to tell the class who you are or would you just like to take a seat," he said still sounding extremely bored. 

"No I'm okay," I said as he pointed to the chair.

 "Everyone this is Leah," he said not sounding as boring. I looked at him and headed to my chair. I looked at everyone as a pair of eyes caught me by surprise. A beautiful light bluish grey eyes caught me. I felt like I fell out of reality. I got myself out of that trans as I sat down. I didn't get to look at that person's face.