The forgotten room

SHADOWS TURN SHALLOW...

You were there... then you weren't,

and I said it was your fault.

Shadows of what we used to be,

are all that are left for me,

but it was my fault really.

I called us " Partners in crime",

yet I was the one pushing my partner away.

I blamed you when you left,

but maybe I was to shallow to see you left for a good reason.

I gave you so many reasons.

You gave me so many chances,

but I was the one who ruined them.

I gave you all the fault,

but never acknowledged that we shared that fault.

You were amazing,

and I was too busy focusing on my depression

to see that you were standing right next to me.

Now I wish you were here.

Now that I no longer have your presence,

I realized how real you were.

How real we were,

and I was the one that let that all go.

For what?

trust issues?

believing everyone would abandoned me?

yet I was the one who abandoned people first.

I was so scared of people failing me,

yet I was the one who failed first.