Where do broken hearts go

Chapter Eleven

I rubbed my temples, and let out a deep sigh. "You should just be honest with him" Ashley said, looking at me. I closed my eyes and let my head drop on the pillow I was hugging to my chest.

"I can't be honest with him Ash" I mumbled into the pillow, I just want to stay here hugging this pillow for the rest of my life.

"Why not?" she sounded annoyed, probably because we've been at this for about two hours and so far neither of us have gotten anywhere. "Because it could ruin our friendship" I looked at her, and she glared at me.

"You don't know that, Niall doesn't strike me as the kind of guy that would just give up just like that if something didn't work"

"But you don't know that, what if he is the kind of guy to just give up?" I questioned, her eyes trailed around the hotel room then landed back on me. "Liv, please trust me on this. You need to try" she looked me in the eyes.

I sighed again, and nodded. I've definitely lost the battle, I guess it wouldn't hurt to try.

"Now c'mon, let's go meet up with the rest of the gang. Their probably already in the car" Ash stood up pulling me with her.

"I'll meet yo guys down stairs, I'm just going to run to my room and change quickly" I said seeing as I was still wet from swimming just a few hours earlier.

"Sounds good" I gave her a weak smile and left the room walking next door to mine.

I just really want to get Niall off my mind tonight and have some fun, this is way to much thinking for my brain to take in one day.

I took my now dry hair down from the bun it was in and lose beach curls fell around my shoulders. It's still pretty hot outside so I think I'm going to go with some ripped jean shorts, and a plain black crop top.

that simple enough, should I bring a jacket or will it still be warm out later? I really wish I knew how the weather here worked, that would make my life so much easier seeing as I'm about ready to go punching people out for no good reason.

I laced up my green converse, and turned around to walk into the washroom, when I ran into another body, I screamed and fell to the ground.

"Crap, Liv I'm so sorry" Niall said picking me up from the ground

"It's okay I should have been paying closer attention" I picked my phone up off the ground and shoved it into my pocket.

this could have been less awkward, but I have a feeling I'm about to make things worse for myself. I have Niall alone right now, like maybe now would be a good time to make my mom on him.

Or would that be totally weird and mes sup my night? Why am I over thinking this, I've never had so much trouble when it came to kissing guys, why is it so hard with Niall.

"Liv" Niall mumbled stepping closer to me, I watched him carefully, his hands snaked around my waist, and his lips brushed against mine.

Oh hell Niall, you cheeky little bastard.

before I could think he was kissing me, holy shit balls Niall is kissing me or wait did I kiss him I can't even remember.

I kissed him back, the kiss was slow and passionate, kind of beautiful.

I pulled away and blushed. "We should go, everybody's waiting" I said, Niall nodded and followed me out of the room.

We walked down to the lobby awkwardly, neither of us said anything. Not even in the car ride to the market we were going to.

**

"Livia are you a small?"Jackson poked his head out from behind a shelf.

I looked down at my shirt and nodded "why?" I asked joining him.

"Eleanor wanted me to ask" he shrugged.

I nodded and joined Liam, and Harry.

"Hi" Harry welcomed me with a smile. "hey" I gave him a half hearted smile, he gave me a look signalling that he knew something was up.

Apparently I'm not very good at hiding my feels,but it's not my fault that Niall's got me all pissed off.

Like you can't just kiss me, than ignore me. It doesn't work that way, he won't even look at me was it that bad?

"I actually just came over here to tell you that I'm going back to the hotel" Liam looked concerned but kept quiet.

"I'll see you guys later" I mumbled walking off. not that they would care that I'm leaving anyways, I looked up at the dark clouds forming in the sky.

I should probably take a taxi back because it's going to rain, but on the other hand I really think I just need to go for a walk to clear my head.

Get rid of everything Niall for now, until I figure my shit out.

I felt the rain drops falling onto my bare skin, slowly then all at once it started to down pour.

I groaned but continued to walk along, even though I have no clue where I am, or where I'm going.

So this should be fun.

I continued to walk, now completely soaked in rain water.

A half an hour, and a rain storm later I managed to find my way back to the hotel.

I ran up two flights of stairs and down the hallways running until I reached my room.

I stuck my card in the door, and it opened. I peaked in to see if there was anyone here, but thankfully their wasnt.

This is good I just need some time away, and maybe a nap I'm honestly so tired.

But first I need a shower.

I tossed my soaked cloths into the dryer that was in my hotel room then made my way into the bathroom.

The rain had made my makeup run so I was looking a little like a raccoon.

I let the hot water wash over my skin relaxing me, until I felt I was ready to get out.

I changed into the track pants and lose sweater I brought with me to wear and walked back into the main room.

"Oh, Niall" I mumbled when I saw him siting on the edge of his bed looking down at his phone.

He didn't answer or look at me. I grabbed my phone, and the bag with my swim suit and towel and ran out of the room slamming the door behind me.

I ran over to Jackson's room, tears running down my cheeks and knocked furiously on the door.

Liam opened it "I'll be down at the beach if anybody actually cares enough to know my whereabouts" I finished and turned around heading for the stairwell.

I heard Liam calling my name but I avoided him.

***

The waves roared in the water, and the wind was blowing like crazy.

But regardless I was going surfing, the rain had began again making the water really rough.

"Liv!" I heard my name being shouted and turned my head to see where it was coming from.

I saw Niall standing on the beach trying to wave me in.

He should have stayed in the hotel room.

I looked back at the wave and did a duck dive under the first one, all the Niall thoughts distracted me when I went to come up for the next wave I got caught in it.

Sending me into the water, getting trampled by waves that kept pushing me under the water, I couldn't get up for air.

I held my breath as tightly as I could while I was thrown around in the water.

I felt myself fading from airloss, and before long I was out.