Akayla " Dream " Smith .
I ain't mean for this to happen. But it did.
Yea , I'm 19. Yea , I just found out I'm pregnant.
I refuse to abort my baby , Despite what anyone says .
------" You have to get rid of it ."
To hear my own mother say those words hurt.
" I'll get a job and take care of my child myself. "
My mother wasn't necessarily angry but disappointed , I had just got accepted to NYU.
" how bout you go live with PaPa , if you don't want to get rid of it . " she suggested this as she lighted a ciggarette .
I knew she only wanted to keep me away from Tony , she never liked him and now her finding out im carrying his child was the last straw .
" Fine " I said refusing to cry .
" Good ya father will take you to the airport in the morning. " she said walking out of my room .
My PaPa lived in Houston. I lived in Georgia.
He always complained about being alone since my Grama-Ma died .
So it was set . I'm leaving.
I packed everything in my room . I said my " byes " to my little brothers .
I decided to go to sleep early since my mama told me that my flight leaves at 5:45 AM.
Well at least I tried to sleep .
Tony would be hurt if I left .
I was his "Rida" . he told me everything.
He was the only man I've ever been with .
My first love. So of course we had done "it".
Only twice but when I started feeling sick I told my mama and she took me to the doctor .
He told me I was 2 and 1/2 months pregnant .
I haven't got a chance to tell Tony yet .
Maybe I shouldn't tell him .
I mean he is a drug dealer , I would never want to put our baby in danger . and I'm leaving anyway .
It doesn't matter .
I tried my best to sleep .