Life.

losing

the pain in my chest is never-ending.

It's demanding nature won't allow my body to drift to sleep. My head is cloudy with no thoughts because they've all managed to find their way into my chest.

the aching is tremendous.

I big open bed.

the Blues filtering through the earphones.

the dark room.

the thoughts of nothingness.

they all made me feel even more alone.

I've been on a role. I haven't spent time dwelling on the thought of you. all three of you. I've kept my music lively. The people around me reflected the same vibe. but, in the end, the darkness found his way in.

my walls are crashing around me and all I can do is lay here gasping and waiting for the panic to subside.

I miss you.

I blame myself.

I love you always.