Married

Four

When we walked into the building where the concert would be held I started to feel sick. Images flashed to mind so quickly.

Tears started to rise up and threaten to spill over.

Alisa looked over at me just in time to see this all. "you alright?" She asked me.

I shook my head and muttered," I dont know...but dont worry. I'll be fine."

She nodded slowly not sure if she should believe me. "Ok...just tell me if anything is wrong."

I smiled slightly and nodded.

We stood in line waiting to get something signed by the boys. So Alisa reached into her bag and handed me a cd of theirs.

When I saw his face on the picture I just froze. I stood there staring into his eyes.

Memories flooding back so fast.

Next thing I new Alisa was shaking my shoulders and I shook my head and whipped away the tears that had fallen onto the case.

"I-I dont think this is such a good idea any more," I managed to stammer out.

Alisa looked at me," What?" She asked," But you agreed that this was what we should do."

I nodded," But Alisa...I'm not so sure anymore."  I said his eyes catching mine again. Except it was the real him. We had been moving in line the whole time.

I quickly looked down and whipped my eyes. Glad that I didnt wear make-up. I then muttered to Alisa," Your right. Its to late to back out. Just got to move forward."

Alisa nodded," That's right. You  will be alright."

I just nodded. We fell into a silence and I just looked down at the cd and at his picture.

After what seemed like only a few minutes after that we were standing in front of the boys.

"And what can we do for you two lovely ladies today?" Louis asked us.

Alisa giggled. But I couldnt manage to look up from the ground. My heart was racing and beating so loud. I swear that if the fans went quiet, like totally silent he would be able to hear it.

I saw Alisa give me a side glance and even though I couldnt see her face I know she was sending me a look that told me to just hang in there.

So I looked up and smiled at them. "Thank you," I said and tried not to look at him.

I knew Alisa wanted me to say more but I had trouble thinking clearly. My eyes meet his and he shot me one of his amazing smiles.

I smiled back slightly. That was all I could manage.

"We would just like you to sign our cds," Alisa said.

Harry smiled," Alright I think we can do that for you two," He said winking at me.

I tried to stay calm and keep the smile on my face as I handed over my cd and so did Alisa.

"Alright girls and who do we make these out to?" Liam asked.

"Mine is to Alisa...cause thats my name," Alisa said simply.

She then looked at me and I gulped but then said," And...I-I'm Juliet."

"Alright then," Zayn said handing the cds to Alisa," There you go."

"Thanks," I said," And Niall nice seeing you."

Niall looked up, "You to love."

I smiled and so did he.

Then Alisa grabbed my hand and dragged me away.

When we where a ways away on our way to our seat she handed me my cd.

"What was that with Niall?" She asked me.

I shrugged," He just hadn't said anything and I wanted him to have a speaking part in our little conversation."

She rolled her eyes," Alright...I guess... But really you shouldnt care."

"Why not?" I asked.

"Because your not here for him," She said.

I rolled my eyes," I know that. But I was just being nice."

We sat down in our seats and feel into silence.

It seemed like forever until the concert started.

While it was going on people all around us were screaming. I couldnt focus on the music, so my thoughts took over.

So many different thoughts came to mind.  My heart started racing again. The yells of the crowd roaring in my ear. My head began spinning. I swayed slightly.

That little movement got Alisa's attention directed at me. I saw her mouth move but I didnt see what she said as I crumbled to the floor.