Promise (Klance)

Chapter 3

Lance POV

"OMG! Keith! Is that you?!" I say eyes wide and the most surprising look is across my face.
"Lance." Is all he said under his breath. I held my bayard close to my chest, my other hand is shaking a little as it is beside the other.
He sighs. he turns his head back and starts to taking to Shiro.
"Anyway thank you for coming. hopefully you can stay long." Shiro said as he is puts his robot arm on Keith's shoulder closes to him.

——an hour later ——
(time skip)
3rd person POV

Keith is now all set up in his old room. He is going to stay at the Castle of lions until he is sent back to the BOM for a new mission. Keith is in his room lying on his bed. He Is playing with his knife. "What am I going to do. I just ignored lance. I DIDNT EVEN GET TO TALK TO HIM! Agghhh wow I'm such an idiot. I can't even do one thing right." Keith went to his washroom and locked the door.

Why am I like this? Why can't I tell him that I like him, no, I love him.
Idiot you are a failure no one will ever want to love you. All you do is make trouble for your team.
It's your fault that your dad is daed. You could have told him to stay but instead you watched him burn in that fire. You let him go. It's YOUR fault. Shut up!! Stop it, my dad saved throes people! He saved me! And I was only 12 how could I have saved him? You still could have tried to save him at least, instead of just crying and watching him go die.
Your mom never loved you that's why she left. She saw you and was disgusted. All that fat on you, your chipie face. The fact that you didn't look like her. That's why she left and wanted back to the war. To get her self killed.
It's YOUR fault. No it's not. IT ISNT MY FAULT, I WAS ONLY 3 MONTHS OLD HOW IS IT MY FAULT!!!!!
Do you think I have to ask why it was your fault? Just take a good look at your self.

Keith POV

I'm locked in my washroom,
I'm having a panic attack,
I'm crying and shaking,
I'm clinching my knife, knowing that it's drawing blood. I think a bit and I go to the sink grab a bottle of Ibuprofen. I look at it and take the lid off. "Agghh stupid children safety lid." I get my knife and cut.... The lid off, grab 6 pills and went down the hache. I know that it will sit in soon so I go to the washroom floor, having my back against the wall.

My breathing is going faster, l get my knife and go to my blank canvases and cut. It was a good cut for being the first one, blood drips down from my wrist. I get up knowing that blood is dripping onto the ground, I get into the bath and start the hot water, I get in fully clothed. I'm still crying and now I'm shaking harder. I feel the heat enter my body, I cut again and again and again.

I have about 23 big cuts on one arm. there is a lot of blood. The water is a orange colour now. I'm getting sleepy, I know that it's because of the drugs. I turn off the water. I get out of the bath and I see a missed call from my mom.

I grab my phone and I sit back on the wall, blood still dripping. I call her back and press the call button "oh hay how are you doing baby? Did you get there ok? Did you eat anything today?" I curl up into a ball. "hi mom I'm sorry for not answering your call I was in the shower" "it's okay so how are you?" "*sigh* well it happened again. And i didn't tell lance that I like him." I don't hear anything for a moment.

"Are you okay, do I need to call Shiro?" "No I'm ok, just can we stay like this for a while?" "Yes hun, it's going to be okay. Do you want to talk about what happened?" "Well I was thinking about lance and then I started thinking about what happened with dad and." I feel sick, I can't tell her this. She will hate me, I get up and start cleaning up my mess. I go under the sink and get the bandages but some how still on the call and not dropping my phone.

"It's not your fault that your dad died hun, you know that you were only 12." "Yea i know just I still think it is, I mean I just sat there and watched him go into the fire. I couldn't do anything I just feel so guilty."
By now I'm all done with my bandages and I look like Osamu Dazai and I get out of the washroom and lay on my bed and I tell my mom that I'm going to bed now so I hang up the phone.

"I am such an idiot." And I drift off to sleep.

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Ok wow this chapter is giving me depression lol. The character Osamu Dazai is from bungo stray dogs. And happy pride month gays!!! Oh and  I changed the description of the book, Please look at. 🥺🏳️‍🌈❤️ love you!!!
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