Today is the day. We are finally going back to Milton Keynes. I'm going to see my family. I love this feeling. The feeling of hope and caution. It takes me back to my audition with bailey. It amazes me he stuck by me for all these years. But he did promise the day he made me the vows. My bags are packed. His bags are packed. I'm worried about kourtneys I was face timing her and she was so jumpy every time jay came in.
We are half way there. We are in Peterborough on our way there. I already told everyone and right now we are singing to the radio.
"Stop!!"
" what! What is it Kay??"
"I forgot my charger"
" you an idiot you can borrow mine"
I smile and then turn to look out the window. I suddenly realize we are pulling up to our old house. I can't believe that we are here. Back to our home.
Tonia orders takeout but I notice kloe still isn't home. Its nearly 10:00 at night. She is only 14. I'm going to look for her. I put my hair up And walk out. I hear a scream and turn my head. There she was, but not on the floor. She was running. Running from the scene. What the hell. I go towards the victim and See what they did. My little sister, a gang member. At the age of 14. How dare she. I grab my phone and dial 999 for an ambulance. I'm not even worried about where she is right now. I'm worried about this beaten up mother. Her daughter stands near her as if she thinks she is sleeping. She isn't breathing anymore and the ambulance comes. I take the little girl to the hospital with her dying mother and sit in the waiting area.
" why did mummy take a nap?"
"Oh honey, your mummy was hurt by some bad people but she is going to be okay." I say with hope in my mind. She doesn't have a dad. She is about five. She has blonde hair and is called Leah.
" ms.McConnell?"
" yes doctor."
" follow me please" I follow as a nurse plays with leah. I then go into his office.
" ms.McConnell, she didn't make it. We need to know if you could take leah into your care, you know and look after her."
" She has no family does she?" I questioned sadly.
" I'm afraid not her mother isn't on any of the governments records. We have checked every system."
" yes"
I walk out about to take leah home when the doctor calls me. I turn.
" you didn't see anything did you"
I stood for a second. To lie would be wrong. To say the truth would be worse for our family
" yes........ I saw a group of people, they ran off and I didn't get a look they were wearing balaclarvas"
I picked leah up because she was asleep and walked out. Bailey was waiting for me in the car. I put leah in a car seat and got in the front. I put my seat belt up and leaned forward. I cryed into my hands replacing the scene I just witnessed of my Little sister in a gang and murdering a mother. Does she not realize that our mother was taken as was her dad. She should know how it feels.
**morning**
I woke up with a banging headache. I rub my face and sit up to see leah and bailey sitting on the floor watching Spongebob. I hug them both and get in the bath. I straighten my hair and do what I need to do. I put on a hot pink jumper with black writing on it and some black jeans. I then put my hot pink Dr.martins. I walk in and put leah in the bath. I washed her clothes from last night because she has nothing else to wear. Tonia is buying her some stuff today for the week we are here and then I will buy her stuff for her room and clothes and stuff.
I walk into kloe making out with some boy. What the actual hell is going on with this girl.
"Kloe!!"
" what do you have a problem?"
" yeah I have a big problem, you get out of this house and kloe sit there. How dare you, do you really think I didn't see you last night. You murdered a little girls mother. She is living with us. Why the hell are you acting like this?!"
"I DONT KNOW OKAY. Its just in the gang I feel like I'm loved"
"HOW THE HELL IS IT LOVING TO KILL SOMEONE, OR TO TAKE A LITTLE GIRLS FAMILY. SHE HAS NO ONE HER DADS DEAD AND SO IS HER MOTHER YOU OUT OF ALL PEOPLE SHOULD KNOW ABOUT THAT YOUR MUMS NOT ALOUD TO COME NEAR YOU AND OUR DADS DEAD. HOW DARE YOU ACT LIKE THIS IS ALL FINE. YOU WERNT SUPPOSED TO BE LIKE THIS."
"whatever"
I walked out. I feel sick I vomited this morning and I keep getting cravings. Bailey is going to get me a pregnancy test. I want to be pregnant. But not right now with leah. I'm gonna call my best friend.
Nyny: nyrah
M:me
M: hey nyrah how you doing?
Nyny: I'm doing good what about you I heard what happed your on the news
m: what? Oh well I will be home in three days
Nyny: okay then you can bring leah to have a girly day yeah
M: alright oh one more thing
Nyny: yeah
M: I might be pregnant
Nyny: oh my gosh text me the news I got to go
M: okay bye
Nyny: byee
