Surrera One Shots

One day maybe...

TW - Talk of abuse and assault

Okay, this was written in response to Thursdays episode of Station 19 (S5 e17) and next weeks after seeing the above photo. So in this story everything has happened as in the show and Andy has just found out about Robert and Ross - (I cannot believe I am having to write a story about those 2 together) - so this is what I would like to happen....

She rushed through her front door throwing her keys and phone on to the nearby table. To say she was pissed was an understatement. To say she was hurt would belittle the pain she actually felt. She paced up and down the small room, her hands tugging at her hair as her thoughts swirled viciously through her mind. She knew technically she had done it first. She had slept with Beckett and she knew it had hurt him. She saw the blow he had felt when she told him and she had felt awful about it. But it was a mistake. She had been lonely and lost and confused and he had been there and as soon as he had rolled off her she knew it had been a mistake and it would never be repeated.

This though, this that she saw today, Robert and Ross together. This was different. This had made her feel sick to the pit of her stomach in so many different ways. She was his superior, Robert had lectured on and on about that sort of relationship when they were first getting together. He said it couldn't happen, it would make them look bad and ruin his chances of Chief and her's of Captain. Only now it was okay because the tables were turned and he was sleeping with his superior and Andy and well everyone knew that Robert was prepared to do anything to get back his rank. But this? This was a new low.

And then the first female Chief - Ross; how did it come to this? How can Andy have been so excited to have a woman in charge and thinking of the endless possibilities and strides forward for women in the job for her to turn round and basically blow it all. To do what everyone in power seemed to do, abuse their positions when it suited and use their authority for their own pleasure. Andy was sick of it, she thought this had ended with Dixon but it turned out Ross was even worse. She was sly and operated by pretending to be your friend and ally but all the time scheming against you and sleeping with your ex husband.

Andy was furious and upset and she needed a drink. She grabbed the tequila bottle from in the kitchen and quickly unscrewed the top, the smell wafting up to her nostrils within seconds and she instantly recoiled. The smell taking her back to that night in the bar. She hadn't drank since, she didn't like the feeling now of not being in control. She knew it wasn't the alcohol that had made Jeremy attack her but it was a reminder of it and one she could do without.

She had gone round to Roberts house as she had wanted a friendly shoulder, someone to talk to about the trial and everything that was happening. She was scared and upset and he seemed like the ideal person to talk logically to her and help her process her feelings. But when he'd opened the door in just his pants and she had seen Ross on the sofa behind in just his t-shirt, the hurt she was already feeling had intensified. She had ran as fast as she could, tears streaming down her face with upset and anger and hadn't looked back even as Robert had called after her again and again.

Enraged with everything she threw the tequila bottle to the floor, it smashed instantly, splattering the clear liquid against everything in its path, herself included. She heard her phone ringing from the other room but she ignored it, it would be Robert again, he had already called her multiple times. Tears spilled over as her emotions once again got the better of her and blurred her vision as she bent down to pick up the larger pieces of the broken glass bottle. She recoiled quickly as one sharp piece of glass pierced her delicate skin, blood instantly dripping to the floor and joining the tequila liquid already pooling there.