One Look 》Lando Norris

15 - missing you

Nina
I didn't what to do or where to go, but everywhere but Lando's room would be fine. All the emotions that I felt were getting to me. Anger, disbelief, confusion, disappointment, sadness, insecurity. I just felt like shit. My friends at home wouldn't understand this either. They are great friends, but sometimes not serious enough. They laugh stuff away and pretend like it never happend in the first place. The most common reaction is something like: "oh honey, it's not worth it. Just let it go." And then change the subject. There was only one person on earth who would get me in these kind if situations. When everything is just a bit too much for me to handle. And that was my mom. But she sadly passed away a few years ago. She died in a car accident and that's actually what got me to watch f1. I wanted to get close to her again and she spend her last minutes inside of a car. So watching formula one made me think of her. That's not what I told Lando tho. When I just met him, we talked about these kind of things, but I don't think I told anyone about this. Not even my dad. He thinks I watch it just because I started to show interest and liked it. But that's not the case.

Now that I'm thinking about my mom, I realize I haven't been to her grave in quite some time. It's just too painful. But when I do visit I try to talk to her. I know it sounds stupid, but it feels like she is still there to listen to me. Maybe it will hell me now as well. She always loved driving around and stuff so I walk all the way to the circuit, which is quite far when you're on foot. But I made it there eventually. I sat down at a little bench next to the main entrance and started talking:

"Heyy mom, it has been a while. And I'm sorry for not visiting sooner, but life has been a bit crazy lately. I went to a race with dad and it was so much fun, you would have loved it. I kinda met a boy there, he holds a special place in my heart but he doesn't know that yet. We were taking things slow, you know how much I hate going to fast in relationships. But a few things happend. He actually hit a woman and that is something I can't let go easily. What if he ever did that to me? Anyway, I went back to the hotel, because I'm here at another race with him and we are sharing a room. And I took some stuff and went for a walk after. It always helps me clear my head. I really have that from you, remember when we used to go on really long walks together? Dad would always be disappointed because we were gone for a few hours. I miss that. But back to what I'm trying to say, when I came back to his room he was standing there with the girl he slapped. She was saying things about him doing great things with his mouth and that she gets why I would want to be with him. And it just made me think. Is he busy with a lot of girls? Is he manipulating me? Is he trying to make me fall for him and then dump me when he is done with me? I don't know if all of this was worth it. I had been crushing in him for ages, which you know because I told you before. But is he really that different in person? That almost impossible! I just don't know what to do know. I know nobody here, have nowhere to go and I really don't want to go back to our room right now. You always gave me the best advise, you always knew the right thing to do. And I need that now, I need to know what I should do, because I'm clueless. I miss you so much mom, you cant imagine! I wish you were still here and help me trough this kind if stuff. Even tho I love dad, it's still different. Well I love u a lot mom, but I'm gonna go again. Kisses."

I didn't notice it but I was crying, hard. I can barely breathe, an entire waterfall of tears running down my face and being alone in a foreign country doesn't help at all. With no other option I call Charlotte, Lando's pr manager. She gave me her number just in case and well this is one of those cases. "Omg Nina are you okay, Lando is so worried about you!" Great he already talked to her. "No I'm not, any chance I can sleep in a different room tonight?" I really don't want to sleep in the same bed as Lando tonight, spending time in the same room is already going to be an issue for me right now. "I will see what I can do for you, where are you?" "Outside, please call if you fixed something, bye Charlotte! And thanks." And with that I hung up again.

Lando
Charlotte: Lando you grab your bags and sleeps in Jons room tonight! We don't want you to be alone tonight.

Lando: I don't think thats necessary! I feel like I'll be stressing out either way. So just let me be for a while.

Charlotte: Lando, this is not up for debate. GO!

Lando: Why tho? What are you guys up to?

Charlotte: Lando, I'm only telling you this because I care about you. You need to rest before you have to drive again tomorrow and the only way to get you to go to sleep is telling the truth. Nina is gonna stay in your room, but she doesn't want to see you. So grab everything you need and go to Jon. Clear? Good night Lando!

Lando: How do you know? Is she okay? Pls let me talk to her? When is she here? Where is she right now?
Charlotte, don't ignore me please!!

I shouldn't try to piss Nina off right now. Not when I desperately want to talk to her and explain my previous actions. I need her to forgive me and tell me it's okay. God, just a hug would be okay. Anything really. But if I want to make it up to her, I think I should give her some space, so I grab my stuff and make my way up to Jon's hotelroom and go to bed.

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