Pandav Priye Vallabha (OS)

Deafening Silence

With long open tresses paired with sticky cheeks which were now cold due to soothing but spine chilling wind, a lady was not at all ready to accept her fate..... How was it possible? Is it righteous? What would the society talk of her?

Though her sakha Krishna has lamented her heart and she too has forgiven her husbands, but she still felt void in her heart. She wanted at least one of her husbands to come and sooth her not rage-filled but despair filled heart. However none came. Are they scared of her? Was she sher heart still burning with the desire to seek revenge? She started searching for an answer and the answer was NO. Her Govind has successfully turned her vengeance mind into a righteous one. He gave her apt reasons for war i.e to punish the bad for cleansing the society. If the Samragyi of Aryavart, got such an insult it was not impossible for any random girl to face veracious insults. She was determined to fight war she knew it.

One day has passed after the cursed DYUT SABHA. All her husbands have left her and went to meet their OWN wives and sons of them, one last time before leaving, except one. For the first time she felt jealous of her co-wives, whom she occasionally visited and loved unconditionally more then her real sisters. But today she felt envy, as for wiping their tears, they had their OWN husbands, despite she having five, had none.

Only one night is left for them to leave for VANAVAAS(exile).

Arjun, the one to whom she surrendered her heart, soul and body, in one sense she fully devoted herself to him unlike her other husbands, where only her body and heart was but not her very soul, didn't leave a stone unturned to give her pain. Right from her Swaymvar to Dyut Sabha. Only Arjun had the right on her foolish soul, that soul which still craves for getting Arjun whole heartedly. But her fate was never in her side. Both Krishnas(Arjun&Draupadi) always had to sacrifice themselves for the welfare of others. True being princess, empress, her everything should be sacrificed to bring a smile on the citizen's face and being a divine lady herself, an AYONIJAA(one who is born out of fire), she had more potential then any other mortal person on earth just like her husbands who were divine too. But at the end of the day wasn't she a woman, a married woman? Who craves for her husbands' love, care and attention, but doesn't receive much, as her husbands and she herself were always plunged in palatial duties. No wonder she was tagged PANDAVPRIYE(loved by five). But truth won't change. Mahrishi Ved Vyash stated she despite having relationships with all her husbands won't have perfection with any.Her relationship was just like an established idol having relation with the pillars. But wasn't she a human and not an idol? When in solitude, she still repents for the dreadful decision she took almost twenty five years back just after her Syaymvar.

She took an oath to fight war, she will fight till her last breath for it. But her heart? What about that? Would she only be called PanadavPriye, when she in literal way was not ?

She found solace, only when she is with her children whom she begot from her five husbands and of course Abhimanyu. They were her only lifelines now, only hope and support for facing the greatest challenge of  her life. In this huge palace, only Arjun, Subhadra, Abhimanyu and her sons were left.

She couldn't think more. She was getting frustrated. Abhimanyu slept peacefully, unaware of the painful separation from his piece of heart. He was under the soft bedcovers of his BADIMAA 's huge Mahogany bed. Shrutkarman was sleeping in between Shrutsena and Abhimanyu. Both the elder brothers were protecting the youngest Draupadeya Shrutkarma from slipping off even in sleep. Before coming out of her chamber, Krishnaa couldn't help but smile at the bond between her sons. She slowly crept out of her room , and with slow steps went towards her other sons' room but couldn't help peek once in Arjun and Subhadra's room once which was open. She found none.
It was dusk, so naturally the couple must be at the bank of illuminous lake.