That Night..

Chapter -20

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Seungmin's (pov)

'Why am I a trouble for everyone? Why am I like this! How can I take off the guilt of the reason of death of those beautiful hearts?

If I had concentrated on those signs given by some uncanny encounter, they could have bee saved. I am a burden on them. They will hate me for this. I am not worth to live. My body scent too is dangerous for members of the band.

Why am I even here! Why am I fragile that I couldn't stop hyungs to what they were doing? Am I afraid ! Do I like that! No, this is not very good feeling. I should not ponder that I enjoyed that. Why.. . Why.... Why....!

I was not like this before the incidents started to happen. I was a tough and cheerful person who didn't like skinship so much now what am I doing!

I should gather myself for all of them who had become stars in the night sky in those dense clear bluffy nox, those Stays who have always supported us no matter with what problems we gone through and the members without whom I can't imagine my life.

Will my emotions become a timber of ignored chronicle or some taradiddle?
Why am I creating problems for the members! I should not.

Do my scent really made Minho hyung want to intimate with me? Was he behaving this way because of my  stupid scent ?

Did he ever liked skin-ship with me before? No, he didn't. I am so stupid to even think that he ever liked being touchy with me. He never liked skin-ship with me. That makes sense now. All this beautiful and cheerful memories were pivoted on invisible pillar. He didn't wanted those..... but forced.

And i was thinking that maybe he was going over to his that form who always cheered my presence when we first debu ;he would always hug me and say me to sing for him so that he would hear my voice.

Me and him were the first who got close very quickly. He helped me in arranging my schedules and i helped him in organizing his work schedules until other members debued.

I remember, once I was practicing in my room late night, I was not aware of his presence for how long he was there. When I finished he came from behind and hugged me tightly. Those line still linger in my head that he told to me "you have  got an angelic voice. Promise me if we can make our debut successfully or not you will never stop singing".  He kissed me on my cheeks and ran away.
That day will never be forgotten because that was the day when my little heart skipped a bit for a cute boy.

He had changed when other members debued. He began distancing from me. He was changed so much, so much that when I think about the earlier Minho, tears always start to flow from my eyes.

He no more liked my touch.
He no more liked my presence.
He no more liked hugging me.
He no more liked my company.
He no more liked being with me.
He no more liked eating with me.
He no more liked playing with me.
He no more liked going shopping with me .
He no more liked me.

He became a tsunder. He closed himself from me. We bahan arguing over trifle of matters and things.

He changed too much to be changed.

All those things never came back to me. The earlier Minho never returned to me. A small tint of light in some corner of my heart twinkled when he once again began to cuddle me but all was just a force from my scent..

He has changed, tcheee.., that was my mistake to ever think about! 'Seungmin was thinking all about this as he cried hard and hard thinking about the past and the present scenario of his bond with his hyung. He became pale , cuddled into a small ball and shivered badly. He was loosing his consciousness then suddenly the door flung open, Changbin and Felix came in room.

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"Minho hyung, what do you think you was doing with Seungmin", Hyunjin asked the older with a frown on his forehead as he asked the question.

" I don't know. I can't control myself when I smell his scent", Minho told as he sat on the chair.
Hyunjin also sat on the chair before Minho. "Why didn't you told everyone about this kind of effect of Seungmin's scent on you", Hyunjin asked as his voice softened on seeing the condition of his hyung.

" I was afraid ", Minho said.
" Afraid of what, hyung", Hyunjin questioned.
"Afraid of what the members will think about me , afraid of what the younger will react to my this behavior, afraid of ruining the bond with members especially with Seungmin", Minho said as soft sniffles came from him.

" Hyung, you know all of us, we don't judge each other on their mistakes instead we help each other to improve. What made you think that we will be judging you ", Hyunjin said as he held Minho's hand in his and squeezed a little that everything was fine and he was ready to listen his problems because when he Hyunjin was on hiatus, Minho helped him to clear his mind from negative thinking a lot as he told him that he was always be with him no matter what happened.

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