TOG X Reader

Bam- Are You Upset With Me

I have been friends with Bam for awhile now since my sister Endorsi decided to introduce me to him, but after awhile I started to feel weird around him. The way that his golden eye would stare in to mine, I felt like he could see evey part of me. The innocence he held on to, has my heart pounding. Every time he leans into my touch, wether I'm just getting something off his face or fixing his hair. I always found myself wanting to protect him. To keep him safe. To make sure he felt wanted, needed, important, but now I want more, I want to make him feels loved.

Khun decided that all of us should take a break so we stoped on the closest floor with a safe resting site for regulars.

I've made my decision, I am going to tell Bam my feelings tomorrow, but for now I know that I should get some sleep.

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After I wake up I put my best outfit on and rush out of my room, heading for Bam's. As I stand in front of his door I can hear my heart as if it was in my ears, my hands tremble with the note I decided I would write for him. I slide it under the door and quickly run away as I hear shuffling.

I stand under the willow tree, hidden for everyone else while I wait for Bam. Seeing the vines swinging, I tense, knowing that it was most likely the man that keeps me up at night. When he steps in his honey eyes almost immediately meet mine as his chestnut hair comes to slowly stops moving.

"Hey, are you upset with me?"

How? How could he think that? After all the time I took to build up my confidence to do this, he thinks I'm upset with him? I can't believe it! I asked him here for the exact opposite reason. Why did he think that? What had I done? When had I done anything to even hint that I was upset? Let alone at him.

"You are, aren't you?" His voice wavered as he choked back tears. Looking up at him again, I see them pooling in the corners of his eyes, and collecting on his eyelashes.

That's what it was! I took to long to do that and to long to get my nerves together, I can't believe it, I had been completely ignoring him!

"No, no Bam. I'm not upset with you. Hey come on, look at me." I beg him, as I start to walk towards him, stoping just inches away. I take his chin in one hand and lead him to look up at me, but as I do so I can feel the tears tracing my thumb only to go down my wrist. As he pears at me through his long eyelashes, only then do I notice how red his checks are.

Was he crying before he came here? How long? I look at him in disbelief. I hadn't done this wright? Are his tears really falling because of me?

I can start to fell my own eyes swell with tears, as he looks back down to nuzzle my hand as if asking for forgiveness. I take him over to a bench near the base of the tree and have him sit down. After, I try to get him to look at me again without success.

I gently drop to my knees to get a better look at him, but when I do so he suddenly clings to me and breaks out into sobs while crying broken apologies into the curve of my neck. I hold him as if he were a thin, delicate piece of glass, afraid that if I were to hold him to tight he would just shatter.

I open my mouth to try and comfort him, but right as I'm about to try he says "I- I'm so sorry, I never wanted you to be upset with me. Please, Im sorry. So sorry." I feel horrible, but right as I start to form a line of thought one of his tears roll down my neck, wetting my shirt. I know what I'm going to say next. I'm going to tell him it's okay. . . I'm going to tell him I love him.

"Bam, I-" he flinches
"Please, don't be upset with me. I can't take it, I- I love you." He mutters that over and over again, sometimes stopping in the middle just to start it all over again. I can't believe it. Was he really in love with me? Did he say something else? Was I just putting together his broken crys?

But he's saying it over and over again,
I love you, I love you, I love you. What do I say? Should I say anything? I hold him closer and tangle one of my hands in his hair. I lower my head and feel my lips brushing over his ear, I felt just close enough I was sure he would hear me.

"I love you too, Bam" I whisper. "So much."

He immediately jolts up and holds my face in both hands. "Really?!" He questions, his tear stained face looking at me so serious, yet so desperate. I take my hands and cup his before using one to wipe the remaining tears off his red face. His eyelashes flutter the closer I get to his eyes and then they close to let me wipe the lashes that still remained wet. He lets his hands fall to his sides as if trying to convey just how much he already trusts me.

I stand up and lean over him, putting our foreheads together and closing my eyes with him to enjoy the surreal moment. Hearing the vines sway from the wind and all the birds chirping beautiful lullabies. I was almost sure that he already knew the answer to his question, but I decided to mark it in both of our minds. As I tilt his head up his eyes flutter open to meet mine.

"Of course I love you, bam. I always have."