Broken (a magcon fanfic)

Chapter 2

Pov Addyson

I woke up early today because I wanted to show I could put myself together and look nice. I do have a thigh gap. I am just lucky that I was born with it and didn't grow out of it.

I went to my bathroom washed my face and brushed my teeth. I went back into my room and I got my makeup. I tried to not pile on the eyeliner and stuff. I felt pretty proud because I didn't.

I put on foundation, powder, little bit on winged eyeliner, and some mascara. I then picked out my clothes. I put on a black strapless bandeau with a teal high waisted flowy skirt that went to the middle of my thighs. I then put a black knit sweater thingy that went to my waist. It was loose knit too.

I then curled my hair and put a teal bow in it. I then put on my combat boots and I was ready. I grabbed my back pack and I went downstairs. I didn't grab anything to eat, obviously. My mom came in and said," boy aren't you looking pretty today." I said thanks and went to the car. My mom got in afew minutes later. I put my headphones in and I zoned her out. I got to the bus stop and no one was there yet. 

Hayes got there next and Chrissa wasn't with him. He looked over and smiled at me. I was confused because he always claims he hates me. He then came over and said," Hey you look good. It's nice to see you in something different."

I was confused but I said thanks and then Chrissa got there. She said," ugghh why do you even try" and went over to Hayes and kissed him. After I saw him roll his eyes a bit but Chrissa didn't see. I laughed to myself. 

I got on the bus and I put my headphones back in. No one really bugged me today. 

When we got to school I went straight to my locker. Today he same stuff again. I really hate having to go to the same classes over and over again each day.

Later that day

I got home and I really wasn't in the mood anymore to look good. I washed my makeup off and got into sweatpants that have my schools logo on then and a plain black tee.

All the sudden my phone went off and I assumed it was Nash. It wasn't though. It was Hayes.

a-addyson h-hayes

h-hey its hayes whats up

a-nothing much how did you get my number?

h-i took it out of Nash phone

a-oh cool so whats up

h-nm really bored

a-oh obvi you texted me

h-actually there was something i wanted to say

a-what

h- I am sorry. I mean really sorry you dont deserve me treating you like shit i feel really bad

a- oh thanks that means a lot

h- i miss you you want to be friends again

a-well what would Chrissa say she hates me

h-idk idc she hates you for no reason at all if she has a prob she can talk to me

a- yeah ok

h-cool

a-cool

h- ;)

a-well i gtg talk to you later

h- yeah okay bye

a-bye

With that conversation I was so confused. Did he want to be friends or does he just want to hurt me again. I hope he wants to be friends. But he sent me a smiley face. I don;t know I am so confused now.

I started to over think and my mind was racing. I started to cry and I couldn't help it. It burned as the tears came out. I couldn't feel a thing but that. I ran to my bathroom with my razors and I started. It took the focus off the burning of the tears. It made me calm down and feel better.

I washed off my hip with a wash cloth and rinsed it off so the blood disappeared. I pulled my sweatpants back up and went down stairs and talked to my mom and dad at the dinner table while they ate and I starved myself. But before I went downstairs I rinsed my face.

My mom asked me why my face was so red and I said it was because I just washed my makeup off. As they ate my mom looked at me and said," why aren't you eating?"

I told her I wasn't hungry because I ate a snack earlier before dinner.

She said okay and we moved on. We talked about my day. I listened to them talk about their day and after I went back to my room and laid down. I texted Nash night and I took a melatonin. It was only 7 but I was tired. A half an hour later I slowly fell asleep. It was slow but peaceful.