Keeping Up With Savion

Get It Together Brotha

Savion POV: Lord, I'm soo sorry for doing this, Please forgive me, but i dont know how to control my sexual desires. Especially if I get hard for no reason. I aint gone disrespect you again God. I had to quickly send a prayer up asking for forgiveness cause I was on my way straight to HELL! So I went In church looking for my Momma, and I found her and sat with her.

"Where's Martin?" I asked

"He's on the other side, where you been all this time?" My momma asked me, i couldn't even think of a good lie.

"I got a phone call from one of my group members from class."

"Oh okay. Shut up, Prophet talkin'"

"Yes ma'am." Now I'm sitting in church bored as HECK, i start not paying attention and stare off into space. Then I hear "You come up, you come up, you come up." at this time I'm thinking mister man over here playing a game with us, BUT he calling people up he got a "word" for. Now he steady picking people and then he points at me. I look behind me to make sure he was talking about the Lady behind me. "Me?" I asked pointing at myself.

"Yes, son. You." I got up and went to the front, and he still calling people out they seat. I'm DEAD in the middle isle Praying to GAWD he say nothing about the little event i had in the car. So then he starts on the left end and starts speaking into this woman's life and lays her out. Then he did it to this man, and laid him out. So i'm thinking "He's gonna knock me down." So i decided no matter what I'm not falling. He gets closer and closer then he finally gets to ME! and he said.

"Son, there will be times when temptation will get to you. but you have to understand who you are and what your doing. You know you have been called to preach the gospel but if you continue to follow in the footsteps of your Father, and your Grandfather, just like their ministries thrived and failed, yours will do the same. There will be times when you don't know what to do so what you need to do is do what God says. God has a blessing for you with you name on it and you just have to go get it, but if you keep slipping your gonna miss it. You gotta give things up your into. Lust, cussing, Drinking, Backsliding, Lying, Hurt, Pain, Your Problems and your Homewrecking, and just give it to God. Receive it. It's Yours" He pushed me and I fell. I was mad that I fell, but I know he right. After while i got up and went to the bathroom to collect myself and i see Martin and Breanne talking in the lobby.

"Well Hellooooooo" Martin said. "Saved, filled and sanctified once again?"

"You can have several" I said and chuckled.

"I was just praying he didn't call you out on what we did." Breanne said, and caught herself cause she wasn't suppose to say it out loud.

"HA! I knews it." Martin said, I just put my head down and Breanne put her head in her hand. "Little nasty Christian FREAKS!"

"But you're gay" I said.

"But you was CALLED to PREACH." He said and Breanne started laughing. "I know I'm living in sin, just let me have my fun while I'm young, I'll be delieverT one day."

"Ill keep you in my prayers" I said.

"I will too" Breanne said. "Well come on Martin lets go back inside." Breanne and Martin walked back in church and I went to the bathroom. I walked in and looked in the mirror. I saw a hypocrite and a liar.

"Savion, you need to get your crap together. You don't know how much time you got left on this Earth, and while you here you need to make and impact, make a change, and make a difference int the community and in the lives of others. God is not pleased in all the stuff you've been doing. get it togetha!" I said to myself as i looked at my self in the mirror. I got a lot of stuff to work on and I know i'm not perfect. I walk out the bathroom and go back in church and the minister introduced R&B Diva Lil' Mo to sing her song Dotted I that really spoke to me.

Dotted I - Lil Mo (Snippet)

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Perfect, I know that your perfect. It seems that you just can't do nothing wrong. I guess thats how you were raised all along, but honey I'm human. Excuse me I'm human. You have no idea just what i go throught. Daily i'm crying out Lord what now to do. And i sure do need you. That's when he holds me. And he wraps me in his loving arms. He keeps me safe from all harm. And I may not dot every "i" or even cross every "t". But I guess that you have arrived, but the Masters still workin' on me. And until, I'm in my grave, both hands will I raise. Signifying I still, oh I still, have a praise.

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