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"MY STORY"

Hi my name is Natalia Aka lia. Some people know me on here in reality but vary vary few. Let me start with 9 years young , I was bullied in 4th grade by my best friend. I began to realize that it was not worth the fight and gave up . But every day was hell i hated me so much i felt i had no control of my emotions anymore so one day one the first day of 5th grade i cut . I know cutting does not solve anything but i hated my self for who i was and every move i was mad at every fucking thing i did i hated it and continued for the whole year no one new . It got really bad one day i got so mad because it was haunting me and i broke beer bottles and used every piece i could find and the sink was filled with blood i fainted but it was at 12 o clock so no one new i woke to dry blood and a really small puddle next to me i just cleaned and got my sweat shirt and acted if nothing happen. It was now 1:oo A. M . I cried a lot but, i found hope my sister she was the happy of my soul i was so happy but once i found out she was going away from me i cried so mush that i would not leave my room and that was for 3 days i would only go out for the bathroom. I cut and let me tell you i misted it. For those 3 days i cut 19 times it was bad i did not eat .... nothing i hated it i did not believe it. It broke me so bad. But she stayed she was not going away from me she is staying in my hart was with joy . OK, listen my sister is if you tell her something she will help you there. So that is what she did by now i am 11 years young. I have not cut since then only once but it was for my anxiety that kicked in and i cut and that happen