I wanted him to kiss me...

Our second Chapter

Theia

It was the 13th of June. About a month has passed. I said I wouldn't fall for him. But the truth is is I did. I fell hard and I fell fast. Atlas is my world. Atlas is my everything.
I sent him a massive paragraph detailing how much he meant to me. He is my everything.

The sun was beaming through the window and I picked up my phone after seeing Isla had messaged me a dozen times asking to go into town. After yawning and replying to all my snaps, I picked out an outfit and put it on admiring the way it fit around my figure. I was wearing black jeans and a cropped white shirt. I ran down the hallway and to the bathroom to brush my teeth, put my makeup on and I threw my keys in my bag after quickly closing the door and opening the car door. I drove for 20 minutes into the town centre and called Isla trying to find her in the midst of all the people. I pulled the phone away from my ear and noticed that Atlas had messaged me.

Atlas: What're you doing, my angel ?

me: I'm just in town with Isla. What about you ?

Atlas: Ah very nice, I'm going to go on a drive with my dad haha I might come and see  you though.

I slid my phone into my back pocket and held my arms out to hug Isla. After walking for hours and eating an entire tub of ice cream next the lake with half a dozen swans gliding across the water, we walked back to the car laughing. I hadn't heard from Atlas since midday and it was now about 6pm. I thought maybe he was still out on a drive or maybe he was going to come running around the corner to see me. But nothing happened, we got to the car and Isla insisted on driving us home as I zoned out multiple times trying to not think anything of the whole Atlas situation.

After getting back to my apartment, we walked up the five sets of stairs and Isla hugged me again. "Somethings on your mind gorgeous. Is everything okay?" I nodded my head in response and said goodbye as she walked back down the stairs. Life felt quiet. Something was off. It felt like I was secluded from life. My thoughts were flooding my mind. Somethings happened, I know. I just know. I pulled my phone out of my pocket and opened mine and Atlas's chat. I scrolled back through the messages and tried to take my mind off everything. I opened a bottle of Vodka and sat on the kitchen counter and drank half of it straight from the bottle before glancing back over to the chat. Still nothing. I laid down and put some music on to drown my thoughts out. At 12:08am Atlas messaged me. I sat bolt upright trying to stop the dizziness as the words were blurred on my phone. I read the message and felt my heart drop.

Atlas: Hey gorgeous, sorry I haven't messaged. I'm in A&E.  

My heart was pounding. I felt sick. I had nothing to say. I asked him if he was okay and kept asking and he didn't answer. I didn't know what to do. I ran over to  the door after half an hour trying not to trip over everything as I was pissed out of my head. I slid my shoes on and stumbled down the stairs, missing a few as I went. I felt relieved he'd messaged me but I wanted to know what had happened. I swung the car door open and put the key in the ignition. I shouldn't be doing this but he means the world to me. Who gives a shit. I felt tears beginning to collect and I blinked and let them slowly trickle down my face. I picked up my phone again to make sure he hadn't replied saying he was home. After quickly reading the message saying he'd been in a car crash I didn't hold back on the tears, they stained my face and I could feel my heart pounding and my the pace of my breathing start to rise. I felt helpless. I had to do something. I couldn't just sit there. It didn't feel right. I felt like the whole world stopped. I backed out of the parking lot and tried to focus on the road before I gave up and pulled over on the curb. I continued to let my tears fall realising I shouldn't have drunk anything and that I should've checked up on  him before me and Isla went home. After hours of crying and hyperventilating, my body decided to calm down and allow me to sleep. I wish it was all just a nightmare and that none of It was real.