Testimony (while questioning)

Testimony (sorry had no time so didn't took much time on it)

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You know when I was new-new Believing into Jesus. That is probably last year actually. you know so there was this point where I was turning away from my sins and I was repenting in actual you know. I was changing at that time. so For the first time you know I was walking towards God and not against Him. So you know turning towards God was obviously not going to be easy. Because you know when you are willing to repent there's someone that knows that you're trying to walk towards God. I'm talking about the devil you know. So this time when I was trying to walk towards God. He putted a lot of evil thoughts into my mind. Like why are you doing this? why are you walking towards God? Isn't Sin pleasing? Why are you posting and sharing about God, that is not even benifitting you? Why are you even following God?, So you know a lot of thoughts were poured into my mind. But fortunately I knew what was going on. like I just knew that it was devil trying to decieve me as if it was putted directly into my head. So you know I prayed to God about this. Because Satan did ask me a lot of "why's?" And i couldn't answer a single one of them. that was horrifying for me actually cause I couldn't answer a single "why?" . So than you know after praying, i think it was three days later God answered my prayers and His answer He simply putted it in my head. It was simply "why not?" And... I thought about it you know and couldn't even answer that also. Like why, I couldn't answer, but why not also i was not able to answer.
But you know God was So good to me that i just gave him my hand but He just hugged.
Why I'm saying that is because after that this happened on the same day.
So than I randomly asked myself what God has done for me? And I started counting like what God has done for me and it was very little honestly while counting. but than I asked myself what God hasn't done for me? and I swear I lost my count. So you know maybe the answer for our "why" is just "why not".