Secret Secret

chapter 19

Felix pov
I hate to admit it but hearing hyunjin  broke my heart.he left the room leaving as in silence. I am the only one who didn't apologise,I don't see why should I?.it was my mission and I will do it again. I am sure if they were in our places they have done the same. I left after hyunjin, I went to his room looking for him. I opened the door to find him looking outside from his window.
"Hyung if you are here to.." He stopped when he saw me narrowing his eyes.
"If you are here to apologise save it" he added
"Why should I ?i didn't do anything worth an apology" I said crossing my arms not bothering to hide my deep voice now. I guess I took him by surprise before he said" you lied to me, you used me"he answered moving across the room
"I'll do it again" I simply replied.
"You are unbelievable, what do you want from me now. I don't have anything to give you, I trusted you with my heart and you broke it" he said yelling.

"Don't yell at me or did you forgot who are talking too" I growled at him making him jump, I instantly regretted but I added calmly"listen, if you don't want to forgive me don't, but don't disrespect me like that ever again".
"You don't scare me yongbok" he said getting close to me towering over me since he is taller.i got closer to his ears
"Maybe you should" I said with my deep voice, I felt him shiver making me smirk.i backed off a little leaving a space between us. he looked at me with hurt eyes.
"Did you even care about me? did spending time with me meant anything to you " he wondered
"Yes it did, it does but if my feelings toward you are going to get in the way of my mission I don't want them" I responded. Leaving the room, all I wanted is for him to stop but he never did I reach my room. I laid on my bed pulling my hair on frustration. Why I am doing this ?i don't care about the mission I lied all I care about is hyunjin. Why do I keep lying to myself?i am confused, even my father told me to follow my heart however I have never done that before. Everything decision I made before was made on logic. This feelings are new ,I have never fallen in love before. I mean I love my family my friends but this kind of feelings is so complicated for me to understand...
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Hyunjin pov

I fucking hate him.i punched the fall from frustration, he didn't even apologise all the other apologised or at least tried to, but he thinks he didn't do anything wrong. That's it I am leaving, I am going to sneak out when everyone is asleep. I can't stay here, as much as I hate to admit I still care about felix but he is not the same boy I fell for. I am not even sure if he likes me back I am just a part of a mission he need to finish.i felt hot tears run across my cheeks, I went to the bathroom to wash my face he doesn't deserve wasting my tears for him. All I need to do now is wait.
At 1 am I put some clothes in a bag ready to leave I jumped out of the window I am lucky it is not that high.i went toward the garden but this place is full of guards what should I do. I thought for a minute before heading toward the garage It is better if I take a car and run. As soon as I left guards came running to me alarms start ringing shit. But I didn't stop a run through the gates seeing the house getting smaller behind me. That wasn't hard was it I laughed.i was to focus on my escape I didn't see the three cars behind me suddenly they start shooting. Who are those? damn I didn't bring my gun I tried to speed up trying to lose them but they kept coming after me great .I am going to die.
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Felix pov
The sound of the alarm echoed the whole mansion I went downstairs to
see what happened.
"Felix it is hyunjin he run away" han said coming to me.
"Jisung come with me, seungmin jeogin take an other car go now" I ordered.
"We are coming too" minho interfered.
" I told you before you are not leaving this house it is not safe" responded jisung
"And I already told you I don't need you fucking protection. He is my friend I need to go after him" answered minho getting mad.it is not time I glanced at chan"chan take an other car with minho and changbin, the guards will give guns for safety "he nodded at me
" but.."i looked at han making him silent.
"Let's go, good thing we have tracking devices on all the cars" I mumbled.
We went after hyunjin I took as few minutes to catch up to him, there are people shooting at him, we start shooting at them. When they saw us they tried running not so soon I smirked shooting one tire making the car roll over the road and seungmin took care of the other one. I saw hyunjin car stop seeing us we left the car running toward chan who did the same.
"Hyunjin, God why did you leave"" I am sorry hyung but I don't want to stay with them any longer " he replied.i got close to them forgetting about the shooters for a moment before i glanced back at the car. I saw a hand pointing a gun toward hyunjin ready to shoot him. I can't shoot the guy since all of his body is hidden in the car which was up side down.without thinking I run toward hyunjin "hyunjin move" I pushed him down but before we touched the ground I felt a sharp pain in my back.it happened too fast I heard the other yelling.hyunjin took me into his arm sobbing hard.
"Felix.. No.. No please don't die stay with me. Baby I am sorry I forgive you but please don't leave me" I heard gun shoots I am sure the others killed the attackers. I glanced at hyunjin taking a deep breath  making my pain worse.
"Don't worry about me .... You are safe that's all that matter..... Jinnie I am going.. to sleep " I said before darkness consumed me.
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Hyunjin pov
Felix just laid on my arms not moving no this can not happen. This is my fault if I didn't try to run this would not have happened.
"Felix wake up please" I start shaking him.
"Hyunjin , let go of him we need to take him home" han said.
"He needs a hospital" I yelled at him tears running down my cheeks.
"We have one thre let go"he said pulling Felix from my hands. We reach the house to find the doctor waiting for us before taking felix into surgery.
Please be okay I won't forgive myself if something happens to you please...