I'm so sick and tired of everybody talking about me how I'm shorter how I'm younger how I like to eat and I'm going to get fat when I get older and I need to do this and do that how emotionally detached I am but they don't see how much it really gets to me when they say things like that. I just want people to shut the fuck up talking to me because nobody knows what I go through daily. How much I have to fuckin deal with on a daily basis and me being an over thinker doesn't help at all. And on top of that I think I like my best friend my only best friend the only person that knows the most about me. I want to tell her about the way I feel on the inside but the truth is I don't even know how I really feel on the inside most of the time I just feel numb other times I feel sad and the rest of the time I'm mad. But the worst part about that is I get like that in an instant and for no reason. I think there's something wrong with me mentally and or emotionally. Oh, and the best part is that my best friend is a girl and I've been struggling with my sexual preferences for a while now I keep trying to convince myself that I'm just too young to actually know what I like I need more experience but the fact that I don't know this crucial detail about myself is just crazy to me and it's definitely weighing me down a lot. I feel like I'm drowning and I can't get my head above the water and when I finally can I don't have time to take a full breath before I'm right back under it's only a matter of time before I'm drowned completely.
YOU ARE READING
Life
Non-FictionThis isn't really for reading purposes. It's just shit I had to get out of my head and onto paper... or screen I guess. I felt like putting them here would help get them further out of my head. I'm trying to find better ways to cope than just keepin...
