Lazy
I get tired of being seen as lazy or like I don't give a fuck. I'm sitting in class literally wanting to bust out in tears because I don't know what's wrong with me or why I have no energy to do anything. It's funny that my mom found out she's depressed but when I told her how I thought I was depressed a while ago she dismissed it. Well one thing I truly believe is that if I wasn't depressed then I am now.
Side note: I hesitated posting this one because it almost seems resentful and blameful towards my mom and I love both my mom and dad with all my heart. I always have and I always will. What made me post it was the realization that how I felt at the time of writing this was and still is valid. I don't blame my mom for anything. How could she help me when she needed help too? Hindsight being 20/20 I most likely was suffering from acute depression but my mom was drowning in it. Today (2022), she's a million times better and more knowledgeable. She's a better woman which helps make me a better woman. If the queen is down the whole palace could fall. The queen has to be ok for themselves before they can help the rest of the palace. And that woman is definitely my queen 👸🏾🖤. (The emoji doesn't do her justice but it's all I got.)
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Life
Non-FictionThis isn't really for reading purposes. It's just shit I had to get out of my head and onto paper... or screen I guess. I felt like putting them here would help get them further out of my head. I'm trying to find better ways to cope than just keepin...
