I Pick You

Chapter 16: Till Death Do Us Part

They started to text me every now and then. I replied with telling them that I'm safe with a classmate that missed me, so we went on a night out. But of course, it's not true. I'm with Cameron, and all of them don't even know. Arian worried, but I kept on saying I'll be home by two a.m in the morning, because its a late night pickup, but he disagrees and wants to come with me so he knows I'll be safe and he could stop worrying. No. I'm with Cameron, and he's safe. I'm safe. He's not a dangerous hazard. Not on this night.

We lied down the back of his pickup truck while we had blankets all over us because of the cold water affection.

"Its all your fault. Now, I am freezing. Freezing!" I annoyed him.

"Whatever. Admit, you enjoyed it." He chuckled.

Of course I did. Of course.

"Duh. I surely did. Did you?"

He nodded, then his phone started to ring and totally ruined such a breezy, romantic moment.

"Hello, Lia?" He answered.

It was loud, so I could totally hear every single piece of their conversation without trying hard to listen closely.

"Where are you? I'm worried!" She whined.

"Don't worry. Just calm yourself. I'll be home in an hour. Just calm, okay?"

He then ended the call and stared back at me. I felt so jealous even though I knew it was the end of our friendship night. Now, it's two a.m in the morning, two teenagers outside in the middle of the night, just newly swam in a cold-ass lake and basically ran away for just a night.

"C-Can I ask something?" I asked.

"Sure. Anything."

"Do you love her?"

He stared at me so still and it made both of us froze.

"What the hell, Grazz?"

That question made my eyes go wide. I was curious. Very, very curious. I just wanted to know if he actually loves her. What if he actually doesn't? Am I letting that chance fly away if it was true. No, the answer is false. I am not letting him go away if he actually loves me, and not her. To not assume, I'd try my best to not let my mind be first than my heart. To let my mind free, and follow my heart.

"Of course I do, that is such a stupid, silly question!" His voice got deeper, "Would you like it if I asked you if you love Arian?"

"What if I said no? Would you like it?"

He stopped for a moment, stared at me and made spark between our eyes, like it was some sort of electrical connection firework.

"The real question is—do you still love me?" He asked, still looking deeply into my eyes.

I hesitated to answer his question, but I wanted to be true and honest, so I can finally open up about my martyred feelings.

"Yes. I do. And I want it to stop. But hell, it can't. Why? Because, you're still here in my heart. Trapped."

"Why won't you ask your mind to let go of me in your heart?"

"Is that really a question? If you were smart you'd know why."

"And why?"

"Because you're my one great love."

I couldn't actually believe I said that to him, and confessed to him what I really felt for him. Call me a relationship wrecker and what not, but you can never stop me from being human and having feelings, too, right? You cant't blame me for having this feeling for a guy I can't fall for, right? Too late, though. I have fallen for him once again, and this "once again" is unstoppable. This "once again", is stronger than the last one. Than the first one.