Craving You

I Like You Too

The next day rolls in and I start to get ready. Kate was getting ready to run to the nearest town to get some food and more liquor. I walk to the kitchen to get some water when I hear Lana and Ava arguing.
"We haven't had sex since in a month Ava!" Lana yells.
"Why should we? You're still talking to your ex right? Go ask her for some!" Ava yells back.
"Whatever. I'm going to cool off, you should think about some things too!" Lana opens and slams the bedroom door behind her.
"Hey you good?" I ask.
"Yeah I'm fine I just need to get out of here for a bit. Are you and Kate still going into town?"
"Yeah Kate is but I was going to stay here, is that cool or do you want me to go?" I ask.
"No you can stay girl, we'll be back soon." Lana says. I told her okay and then they left.

I couldn't help but want to go talk to Ava. Is it wrong if I do? I mean fuck it, I'm just going to try to calm her down. I've seen her get angry at the bars and stuff, and it's not a pretty picture. I go up to the door and knock. Ava says to come in and I see her sitting on the edge of the bed with her face in her hands.
"Hey, you alright?" I ask.
"Yeah I'm cool, did you guys hear all of that?" She asks.
I shake my head yes then lay down on the bed facing the ceiling.
"If it makes you feel better I haven't let Kate fuck me since the first time we've had sex."
Ava plops down next to me, "And what's your reason for that?"
"Like you said I'm not that into her, so why should I?"
"Valid." She replies. We both giggle a little bit.
Did I forget to mention Ava is funny? Her laugh is also contagious p, but I do my best to not let her know I think so. We've gotten along very well since her and Lana, but like I said there's never been any real conversations.
"You know, you're very pretty." She looks at me and smiles.
"Thank you," I reply and give a small smile. Omg I can't believe this is happening. This can't be happening. I'm probably just overthinking it though, it was just a compliment, right?
"So why does Lana still talk to her ex?" Ava asks me.
"Truthfully, they were in love. And then her ex moved away for collage."
"Well, damn." Ava laughs. "I wish I had said something to you, before I met Lana."
She did not just say that. I'm shocked she even did say that.
"I mean I definitely noticed you around. You stand out, you're confident, beautiful, memorizing. I don't know why I never tried to talk to you."
I just stayed there, speechless. Ava turns towards me and pops herself up with her arm, and looks at me. "Tell me that you didn't feel a connection between us, that it meant nothing to you Dez. That you never felt anything between us. Tell me before I do something I'll regret"
It's like she reading my mind. I open my mouth in hope the right words come out. But no words did. I just closed my mouth and looked away from her beautiful eyes. Ava smiles and laughs.
"Don't smile like that." I say and push her to fall onto her back. I couldn't get my head straight. I like her, I want her, but I shouldn't, I can't. But if she's feeling something too, why can't we? Lana is still in love with her ex. But I don't know if she'll be mad and I feel bad if I hurt her or Kate. Ava brings my attention to her with her finger under my chin, bringing my eyes to meet hers.
"Stop thinking for one second." She leans in and kisses me. Wow, I can't even describe how it felt kissing her. But I have more unanswered thoughts going through my head. I pull away.
"I'm sorry. But I'm not going to be your revenge towards Lana for her still talking to her ex." I tell Ava and stand up.
She grabs my hand to stop me,"You're not revenge Dez. I actually like you. And to Lana, I'm just sex, fun and a distraction. And Kate to you is who knows what considering you guys aren't having sex. So why can't I want you?"
She has a point, again reading my mind. "So what are we supposed to do Ava? Sneak around behind their backs? No."
"I would just call it doing us. I don't like Lana in that way. But I like you and I can't stop thinking about you. You Dez."
"What about Lana and Kate then, huh?" I ask.
"Lana tells me all the time that me and her aren't serious. She doesn't care or like me like that. And Kate seems pretty clueless about everything and anything. I don't like her" She's not wrong. "Plus, no one has to know until we figure out how to tell them. They don't pay attention to us like that." Again not wrong. "We've gotten to know each other from a distance, now it's time I get to know you personally." She pulls me close to her, not breaking eye contact. I can't deny that I want to be hers but there's so many things that could go wrong. But I want her. So what do I do? I pull her in and kiss her. "Don't get jealous when I act like nothings Is going on between us." Then I walked away.