Tw: mention of SH-self hatred-suicidal thoughts-
I'm so close to telling my therapist the truth. I don't care how many times people say they regret it. I want to get better, I hate myself, but I can't bring myself to change. So what if people judge me? They don't know me or what i've been through. They don't understand what it's like to live my life. I hate myself. I've hated myself for an extremely long time now. And any time something happens i always think of the worst outcome possible and then blame myself for it. I hate it. I hate everything about me. I wish I was happy but that feels impossible at this point. I'm too afraid to die but I hate living and dread waking up every morning. I don't care if it takes a week or a month I just want to get better and if a grippy sock vacation would help that then it's worth it.
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I need to vent
Randomhey so uh basic TWs will be included at the beginning of each one because i don't really feel like anyone is going to read these but if they do because they want to relate to someone then yeah-
