"I love people I don't like." - 'brutal' Olivia Rodrigo
Its not that I always want to 'fix' people, but I want to help them be better. I hate the way that I will look at a given person and say "How can I help you be better?" Lately, my outlook on life hasn't been great. I've recently closed a chapter of my life that I wasn't ready to end. Although no one died, its still a process of grieving, of grieving the person I was and the situation that I will never be able to go back to. There were two people in particular that made this chapter particularly special to me, one of them, she was by my side through everything. I went through a lot and she was there, even when I didn't tell her everything. The other one, he is complicated to say the very least. There were times where I wasn't sure if we were even friends. At other times, he was the one that I talked to when I felt like the world was against me.
I wish I could get back some of the time I took for granted this past year. I'm glad for the memories I got out of it. I hope they all know how much they meant to me, for what its worth, they were my favorite thing about this year. The four am calls and hangouts will be memories I cherish forever.
