Her Last Love

Jordan's POV

 I woke up to Lilah snuggling me. She looked so worn out, her face was tear-stained and pale. When I woke up last night to her sob, I had to hold her. Nothing she said was making sense. She was begging me not to leave her and not to hate her. No matter what she does, I could never hate her, and I'm not leaving her, she's leaving me. Her cries yesterday were on loop in my head. Her screams and the physical pain it caused her broke my heart. That's when I realized that she will never love me as much as she loves him. She kept saying that she needed more time, but wouldn't say for what. I carefully climbed out of bed, I didn't want to wake her up. She needs her sleep, she's been so drained lately.

"I went to check on Lilah last night, but she wasn't in bed. Did you talk things out?" Dad asked as I walked into the kitchen.

"Not really. She wasn't making any sense. She kept saying that she was sorry, begging me to not hate her or leave her. Then something about needing more time. I hope he understands how lucky he is. I wish she loved me half as much as she loves him." I sat at the island and dad handed me my coffee.

"Boy, are you so fucking dense..... Ow!" Amara elbowed Willow.

"I think she just needs a break and not have to think. Dad's letting her and I skip training. I'm going to take her horseback riding. It always helps me when things start to get to much." Tori said.

"She'll like that. She told me that she's never done that before." I tried to smile at my little sister, but I just wasn't feeling it. "I'm going to go start my stretches." I got up to walk out, but Kelly grabbed my hand.

"Jordan, don't give up on her. Not yet. You'll regret it if you do." She gave me a soft smile. My whole walk to the training field I had this horrible feeling in my stomach. I guess this is what it feels like to have a broken heart. I threw myself into training, taking everything I was feeling out on my opponent, which happened to be Levi.

"Ouch, man. I get that you are hurting, but I really don't want you to accidentally kill me because you were in your head too much." I helped him up.

"Sorry man, I just..... my heart's broken."

"Okay everyone, training is done early. Enjoy your day." Sean yelled. I didn't even say bye to Levi. I jogged home to avoid seeing people. I managed to make it into my room without anyone noticing me. Her smell that was filling my room earlier was starting to fade. I grabbed my phone then flopped on my bed. I unlocked it and stared at her picture, with her beautiful smile. She looked so happy. I really thought I could make her happy. That horrible feeling hadn't gone away all day, so I figured a nap might help. I fell asleep thinking about her first night here. How she laughed as I was chasing her, her hands running through my fur, the way she smiled at me and the way my heart stopped when she would look at me. I thought about the moment I knew that I was in love with her.

I woke up to Austin pacing in my head. He's been quiet since last night, trying to deal with the heartache.

'I get that you are upset too, but would you stop pacing? You're giving me a headache.'

'Something is wrong Jordan, very wrong.'

'We are just upset and emotional right now.'

'No, that's not it. I think she's in trouble.'

' How do you know?' I sat up.

'I don't know, I can feel it all in my body.'

"Jordan, have you talked to Lilah or Tori?" Mom asked as she walked in, and I rubbed my eyes.