°·ODDINARY MAFIA·° | hyunlix|Lixhyun fanfiction°*°

chapter 15

Hyunjin didn't get back to his own house,he was staying at felix's place with the others.

As he was walking in the living room,he saw felix at the veranda alone with smoke.
Like he was thinking deeply about their situation,hyunjin walk towards the latter
Felix looked at him and their eyes were locked together.

"Are you ok?"hyunjin asked with a worried face placing his hands at felix's shoulder,
He gave a smile at hyunjin puting down his smoke.

"I never seen you smoke before"hyunjin added.

"Well you do now,I only smoke when i have problems,just like now,i have a such big problems, of how i could protect my family,i want to live a simple and peaceful life like the other families out there, others used to call me odd before,i don't want this kind of life, miserable,dangerous,crazy,bloody,
Just,damn sometimes i thought I don't want to live in this world anymore,my life's useless as hell,my life is hell,fucking hell"

"There is no life that are not being miserable, your life is miserable because you are a mafia,but your life can be more peaceful if you choose to live a simple life,
Even a simple life can be miserable,
If you choose to leave this world,you will left your family being hopeless,they needed you to protect them lix, there's someone who needs you,i need you felix,i could never leave you,
I'm afraid that one day i get a news that your gone, you know its just pain,lix"

"hyunjin,i could never forgive my self if something bad will happen to you nor those two when the operation happened"

"you know sometimes I just wanna disappear in this world,but I fear god you know and I have my family who loves me tho I'm such a pin their ass"hyun chuckles and so Felix too.

"Promise me you will live felix"

"I promise you hyunjin"

On that lonely night,said it won't be love but we felt inlove, we made us believe that was only us, convince were not broken inside.

It was that moment i felt love.