𝐇𝐢𝐦, 𝐜𝐫𝐮𝐬𝐡 𝐢𝐦𝐚𝐠𝐢𝐧𝐞𝐬

❦ 𝑇ℎ𝑒 𝑂𝑡ℎ𝑒𝑟 𝑊𝑜𝑚𝑒𝑛 ❦

Boy's showing there emotions >>———————————————
Am i a shitty friend for not supporting my best-friends girlfriend?
Because it sure feels like it.

I'm tired of being "The other women",
a man's backup plan.
a man's plan B.

and honestly.... it hurts.

I've never really been "dating material" if that's what you call it.

I've only been in one relationship, that was in high-school. He cheated on me, then after I caught him he said quote on quote.

"yes I did it, I did it because your so fucking boring and I just couldn't stand you anymore, we don't do anything and your to fucking scared to try new things.... so yes I cheated on you. you worthless piece of shit"

I've never had a real relationship, never had a man tell me that he loves me. and never had sex, sadly.

And who would think ?

I am 23 years old... and I'm still a fucking virgin.

Embarrassing.
So fucking embarrassing.

...........................

Today was supposed to be one of those relaxing days, it was a rainy Sunday. and it was gross outside, so I felt no need to look forward into going outside or in public at all.

and to be completely honest, these are my favourite type of days.

I loved the fact that I could sit around all day and do nothing, I loved the sound of the rain trickling down my window-sills and the view from my window to the beautiful street lights.

I loved these type of days

I decided I'd start a warm bath, so I went to my master bathroom and turned the metal knob on the bathtub, making a slight squeak noise while the water runs into the bathtub, filling it up.

While I wait for the bathtub to fill, I leave the bathroom and walk straight into my master bedroom connected to it.

I look at the beautiful pictures of my family and friends on the wall and smile.

Just thinking about them makes my day even better.

I go to my windows and shut the blinds so no one could see when I get out of the tub, and then make my way back into the bathroom.

I undress myself and dip one of my toes in the tub to feel the temperature, making sure it's not to hot or cold. As i realize it's the perfect temperature I step into the tub and relax my body.

I love taking baths, it's so relaxing and such a good way to get your mind off of stressful things going on.

I close my eyes, humming to the song I'm listening to, from my phone. taking deep breaths and taking my mind off of the events and things that have happened the past few days.

and then my mind wanders.

And keeps going to till I think of him.