To the Dark of Nothingness

Chapter 1

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I close my eyes, and all I see is dark of nothingness. I close my eyes to fall asleep. I close my eyes so I can meet with peace, but that wasn't the case here tonight.

I close my eyes and everytime I'm drifting off to sleep, I felt my heart beating harder and harder. My eyes shutting tighter, I felt like I was on the verge of tears.

I try to sleep, but I couldn't. I wouldn't. I stare up above my ceiling, and see nothing.

All I hear are my thoughts screaming, crying, raging and raging in anger, frustration, and exhaustion.

"When will the pain stop?" The voice in my head said. I don't know buddy. Just hang on a little longer, I know we can survive this.

I've been surviving and trying to survive this for the past five years. Just me, myself, and I, no one else to get in our way.

I don't trust... people. Mainly those who surround me from the days I awoke to the nights I sleep, I don't trust them...

As I write down a story on nothing but my phone, my heart did it again. It became heavy once again.

But it stops... And continues... And stops... And continues, all throughout the cold night.

10:42 PM. My eyes start to get drowsy again. I've been fighting my own sleep, but I'm so tired that I do want to fall asleep, into the dark of nothingness. So exhausted from overthinking, too drained to even dream about a magical world where everything and everyone is at peace.

Peace is overrated. Peace cannot be bought. I only find peace in the 6th Circle of Life. I only find peace where I'm surrounded by the 6th Circle of Life.

The 6th Circle.

Although, I can only find peace in the 6th Circle, it's powers are not always available. You have to travel to four different kingdoms to reach the 6th Circle. By car, may it be possible, but the Sky Transport can also take you there, if you wish to be surrounded by strangers.

But once there, everything you've worked for will be worth it.

But rumor has it, the 6th Circle is not the only way of finding peace. No. There are two Highnesses that lives in the first kingdom on the way to the 6th Circle.

Peace. Joy. Love. All will be given by the two Highnesses.

I've traveled to their place and I never felt more joy in my life. Being with the two Highnesses has made me think for the better, that there are still people willing to help me find peace.

The Queen. Although we're not blood related, I loved her like my own sister, no matter how much struggle I had to go through to get this relationship with the Queen. It was all worth it. And the Queen's husband, the King? He's like an older brother to me as well.

11:00 PM. As I am still writing this, my eyes are more drowsy, my breathing is shortening bit by bit...

Slumber now circles me like shadows.

End chapter.

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