Tuseday
As i am walking into my fourth and last period, i saw kole talking to kam, who knew, and teases me everyday about liking kole. Kole looks back at me after something kam says with a kind of shocked look on his face. Shit. I rush into the classroom not looking back. Holy shit. Kams an asshole
It's fine, right? They could have been talking about anything. Maybe he was pointing to someone else. Maybe he made a joke about me. It's fine. He doesn't know. The way he looked at me though. He might know. Oh shit. Fuck. fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck. He knows. No he doesn't. How would he know? Kam wouldn't have told him. Would he? Oh my god he actually told him. No he didnt im crazy. He wouldn't have told him. He would. Kole doesn't know. Hes dumb. I'm good. It's fine. Fuck he knows. I'm not fine.
"Alayah" Mrs. Zinn looked at me. Looking around I notice everybody was looking at me. "What?" I ask, confused on why she had a harsh tone. "Are you going to read for us?" she says and I hear a girl whisper. "Oh uh.. Yeah." i say glancing to the boy in front of me looking for a page number. Pushing my glasses back up I begin to read the very short paragraph trying not to stutter.
Time skip bcs i'm lazy
Wednesday
As I walk down the hallway I notice koles teacher isn't here yet. Please don't be in my classroom. I finally get to Mrs jacobs room and take a deep breath before walking into class. Fuck. kole was here. Even worse, he was sitting in my seat. What's the worst that can happen? I walk over to my row and sit beside him. "Hey" he says looking up from his hot wheels he was playing with. 14 years old and this boy still plays with cars. In school too? I just put my stuff down and lay my head down (bcs it's 7 in the morning bitch who wants to be up? exactly) "soooooo" there was a long silence "yesterday kam told me-" he started. I shoot my head up, eyes wide. "uh yeah uh so about that" i stammered cutting him off. All of a sudden my heart is doing a million miles an hour, my stomach turning, my head was pounding. It was just four words. But those four words had me going crazy. It felt like the end of the world.
We both sat there in silence for a hot second. It was driving me insane."Do you really?" he asks in a soft voice, almost a whisper. "Pftt what nooo why would i like you." i respond alost to fast, my head down, messing with my fingers. I slowly look back up and our eyes meet. Those eyes.
I don't even know why I like him. Hes ugly, stupid, so awkward it hurts, lanky, weird, has a big head, monkey ears, crooked fingers, messed up teeth, a shitty haircut, horrible style, and no personality. The only good thing about him is his eyes. His beautiful blue eyes. I could stare into them all day.
He just gives me that look. His stupid ass face with that stupid ass smile. "Ok well yeah maybe a little" I mutter under my breath. I know he heard me. How can he not with ears that big? he smiles. Fuck "what was that i couldn't hear you?" fuck him. My face is burning and I just know my face is bright red right now. Let's just get it over with "yeah i might have a little crush on you" i say louder than i was meaning to and the whole room goes silent. How could my day get better?
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ik its shitty. stfu
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