Picture Perfect

Confessions- 08

Rose

When I saw him there I was emotionless. Right now you may be thinking, he risked his life for you and you feel emotionless.

Well, the thing is I ran out very mad at him, so let's say he is at negative 5 points. Then he got hit by a car in order to try to save me, so add 5 points. He is at 0. Not mad nor happy with him.

What makes me wish that I was the one to get hit by the car, is the fact that I still love him.

Listen up, is you think that I am some sweet delicate little flower inside out, then let's just clarify that I'm not. My parents raised me to be a strong, independent women.

I was disciplined, I could only spend $5 a day, and those $5 were mine. I worked for those $5. I walked dogs around the neighborhood for those $5. I saw an elder assistant for over half my day when I was 14 to earn those a $5. All in all, if you think that I'm some mommy's little rich girl you are miles and kilometers and astronomical unit away from wrong.

I grabbed his hand and stayed like that for a while. Then he opened his eyes an stared at me.

"S- sorry."

I started at him not noticing the tears about to bury out of my eyes.

"For what?"

He sighed but responded:

"For being a bitch, and a total retard. For damns sake, for being a manslut and for letting you fall. I hate myself because of a my mistakes, there is not enough time in the God damn world to to apologize for all of my stupid moves. The truth is, from the day I met you, I always knew you were something special. I tried to deny it, but I have to say it: I love you."

Are you serious?

"H-how could you say that after y-you took my heart and trashed it like Th-that? You are not worthy of my trust. I will never forgive you, much less give you my heart. Don't even think about saying those words that could fool any girl, even though you have most likely said it to half of the girls in this small town. Don't pretend to be Mr nice guy, when all you are is somebody who is going to say a few words, get laid and then move on. Don't come into my life and pretend to take me to the top when all you are going to do is wreck me. Believe me when I say this Rush Adams, you are not going to get my heart."

He stared at me completely zoned out. I wanted some kind of excuse to leave the room. And finally I got one.

"I'm sorry, but Mr Adams needs to rest, I'm going to have to ask you to leave." Said the flirty nurse that walked in.

"With pleasure."Then I stormed out of the room.

I ran to the bathroom at the hospital, and luckily it was empty.

I felt the hot tears wash down my face probably going to give me raccoon eyes.

"I love you too."