Young love

Im home

I pull up outside the familiar building, it hasn't changed much. Taking a deep breathe I walk with my daughter and head for the door. I haven't stepped foot in this place for 10 years and now I'm back. I never in a million years thought I would return but after getting the phone call I just knew I was needed here. I have changed so much since leaving and the biggest change is my 10 year old daughter. Im nervous and excited all at the same time.

"I'm just going to go in and have a talk with everyone and then I'll come get you okay. Just sit here and I'll be out as soon as possible"
"Okay mum"
I kiss her head and reach for the door, taking another deep breathe I walk inside and all of a sudden I'm 16 years old again.

My name is Ellie and I grew up in Charming, my dad was a part of the notorious Sons Of Anarchy, along side his best friends John Teller and Clay Marrow they founded the club together and they are known as the first 9. My child hood was very different from most but I loved every minute of it. I grew up around motorcycles and I had so many amazing people I called family.

When I was 15 my dad and Jaxs Dad were killed in a bike accident and  my life changed forever. My mum couldn't cope and abandoned me, if it wasnt for Gemma Teller I would have been out on the streets. She took me in and helped me out. She was amazing and I love her dearly.

My best friends were Jax Teller and Opie Winston. We would get in to so much trouble but we always had the best time. Opie was like my brother, he was always so protective of me and never really let me out of his sight.
Jax......well Jax wasn't like a brother to me, he was such a handsome guy, beautiful blue eyes and gorgeous sandy blonde hair. I had a major crush on him my entire life but he never looked my way. He saw me as nothing but a friend, which I was okay with until he met Tara and then everything changed.

One particular night, we were hanging out at the beach, Opie was with his girl Donna and Jax was with Tara. I was drunk, I decided stupidly to drink my feelings away. I hated seeing him all over her, I always prayed it could be me instead but I knew it was a pipe dream. Anyway I decided to walk along the beach, get away from the make out couples. As I was walking a guy started talking to me, I knew him from school and he was okay looking. We started chatting and he walked with me, I thought he was nice, but I was mistaken.

That night everything changed for me, that night was the night I changed, he attacked me and raped me. Left me alone bleeding, when I finally woke up i was lay on the beach, the sea half way up my body. I was freezing and alone. I was so disoriented, I didn't know what had happened at first. I headed home and showered and then the flash backs started. I remembered everything.

I became quiet, wanted to be alone. Jax and Opie gave up trying to figure out what was wrong. A few weeks later I kept being sick, my boobs hurt and I just didn't feel well. Gemma made me an appointment at the doctors and that's when they told me I was pregnant. That boy had raped me and gotten me pregnant.

I had no idea what I was going to do, I was 16 years old how could I become a mother. How could I look at this child everyday and be reminded of what he did to me? I knew one thing I couldnt stay in charming, I had to leave and I couldn't tell anyone the truth. I found an auntie in New York and so that's where I went.

When I was 5 months pregnant I was thinking about giving the baby up for adoption. I couldn't bring myself to abort it. It wasn't the babies fault so I thought adoption was the best option.
I was looking through all the paperwork one day when I felt the baby kick. It was nothing like I had ever felt before. I got really emotional about it and something in my heart and head clicked that day.

I decided to keep her, I decided to be a mum. I know not many people may understand but to me the kick was a sign, the baby was asking me to keep her. To keep her safe. So I did. 4 months later my baby girl was here and she was beautiful. I called her Ava Marie Samuels and that was the day she became my everything.

Coming back to charming, was hard for me. No one knew about Ava because I hadn't kept In contact with anyone. One Saturday morning, me and Ava were shopping when my phone rang it was a unknown caller. When I answered I knew the voice straight away. It was Gemma, she told me Jax was going through a really rough time and had just had a son called Abel. She told me the boys mother was a junkie and that she od'ed and Abel was born 10 weeks early. He was in bad shape and Jax wasn't doing well. She told me he needed me, he just didn't know he needed me.

I don't know what it was but in an instant I said okay, and now here I am. About to walk into the club house where I grew up.

Walking in, everything looked the same and smelt the same. I smiled remember all of the memories here. Looking over at the bar, I see 4 guys. 4 guys I hadn't seen in 10 years.
I smiled and shouted over

"Well I guess things in charming never change do they.."
They all turn around and instantly smile as soon as they see me.
"Ellie?"
"Hey Tigger"
He runs around the bar and picks me up, crushing me to him. Next thing I know I'm surrounded by Bobby, Chibs and Opie.
Back in the arms of my boys.

"What are you doing here?"
"Well Bobster, Momma called so I came running"
"It's so good to see you ellie"
"You to Big Bear"
Opie was always big bear to me, he always gave the best bear hugs.
"I have someone for you all to meet" they looked at me confused. I walked to the door and ushered Ava in. She stood in front me and smiled shyly.
"Boys this is Ava my daughter, Ava this is our family"
They all look down at my little girl and smile warmly.

This is where I belong, this is where I have always belonged. It felt good to be back.