Chapter 6

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-Michael POV-

"The other part of my problem is that I'm in love with Luke. I can't help it" I couldn't believe I could let these words slip out of my mouth. We're both speechless. "I shouldn't have told you, I'm so stupid." I sigh. "No, no, no Michael you're not stupid. I just didn't see this coming. You seem like you hate him with all your guts." she explains. "I do, but I can't. I'm in love with him." I don't even understand the words out of my mouth so why would she..? "Then why are you cutting?" she whispers the last part. "Because it's obvious Luke likes you And not me." I frown. "That's what I've been wondering this whole time. Does he like me?" she asks, I only shrug because I honestly don't really care at all. "Michael, just please don't cut. I know it's hard. When did you start?" she questioned me. "At the beginning of the school year, when I met the boys," I answer. The beginning of the school year was about 5 months ago I believe. She quickly counts the months. "Oh," is all she can respond.

"Just please don't. I know, I know it's really hard just please don't give up." she tells me forcing a smile. There's still tears going down her face. It hurts me to see her crying over my pain. My pain that I deserve not her. I love Brooke. But I think I'm bisexual.

Brooke wipes her eyes. She slowly gets off of my bed. "Michael," she turns around before she exits my room. I look at her confused. "I love you, please don't do anymore harm. If you do I'm right here," she smiles. "Sure you love me," I look down not believing she said she loved me. "Yes I do!" she said slightly frustration. I feel a small tear going down my face. She sees it and runs towards me. I just close my eyes. Before I knew it her arms were wrapped around me tightly in a hug. I smiled hugging her too. This is what I needed. I loved this. Can this last forever? She takes away the hug and walks out of my view back down to the couch. I needed another hug, but a hug from Luke.

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It was later in the evening around 7 and we all joined the couch again. "I have exciting news" Ashton says. "Huh?" we all say together. "I'm moving to my own apartment!" he says excitingly "so when is this?" Luke says. "On Monday...? Yeah Monday," Ashton states. Today was Saturday. "Why didn't you tell us any earlier?" Calum brings up. "Uhh I don't know" Ashton says unsure. "I'm pretty much all packed though," he says pretty excited. Ashton was always so mysterious but we loved him anyways. Ashton was Ashton and that's all there is to it.

There were two couches. Brooke and I were sharing one. She was near the middle and i was on one end. And Calum and Luke were in the same position except they were on another couch. Brooke watches me stare at my cuts. I put my knees up in the air so nobody else can see my cuts. I feel liked they'd bully me if they saw. I just didn't want Luke to see. That would be the end of me.

I don't know why I loved Luke Hemmings so much. I loved him so much I hated him. Every time I saw him with Brooke I wanted cry in his arms. I love Brooke don't get me wrong. She's so pretty and sweet Its just, well, I want Luke to be mine.

Brooke was still staring down at me. Not in a bad way. But a protective way. I loved it. She loved me, and I knew she did. That's one person who loves me. "Uh Michael, I need to talk to you in the uh kitchen." Luke says to me. I quickly pull up my sleeve so nobody would see and follow Luke towards the kitchen. Luke stares deeply into my eyes. Damn, why did he have such an effect on me. "Should Brooke use Ashtons old room?" He asks. "I don't mind. She can use one of ours. But why not? Its an empty room, might as well use it." I finish. "What were you guys doing in your room earlier? Were you making out?" I blush at the way he says making out in his hot Australian accent. It was just wow. No wonder the girls were always on him. How does Brooke resist this all day?

"Uhh Michael?" Luke chuckles. I take the thoughts out of my head "what?" "were you making out with Brooke? Like earlier?" he repeats kind of nervously. He seemed concerned... "No, but, do you like Brooke?" I questioned him not sure.of what else to say. I didn't really want to hear an answer, it's already obvious. I only see Luke blush out of the corner of my eyes. "Yeah, she's so sweet and giggly. I love everything she does. Even though I've known her for a week, I think I'm in love." he blushes over his own thoughts of thinking about her while I'm over here, crushed my his words. Hurt. Broken. I'm just worthless towards him.

"Do you even care about me?" I don't know why but those words found their way to escape from my mouth. "Of course I do lad. Why wouldn't I? We may hate each other, but deep down. I love you, you're a great pal. Thanks for always making me better mikey" Luke makes sure his words go through my head. Those words were sweet they had brought joy to me. But the person of my dreams, who is right in front of me, loves another person. My heart trembled at the thought. "Yes, I do love you, you idiot, I don't hate you" Luke smiles towards me. God, I wanted to see that everyday.

We both went to the couch, sitting where we were before. Brooke looked at both of us worryingly. I'm lucky Luke didn't question what me and Brooke were doing together, I would have had no idea on how to respond. He would have gotten suspicious. We all continued to watch tv. Yes we all joined the couch and watched tv together like a mini family. I wanted this moment to freeze in a frame. My life is a love/hate relationship. I have to live through it though, just like everybody else. Today was a hard day. I revealed a secret that nobody's ever known. I wanted Luke to know how I felt, but would that ruin our friendship that we shared? I wouldn't want to risk that. Unless something like that slips out of my stupid mouth again. I might just have to avoid Luke. Should I?

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