Was It A Mistake? Or Is It Destiny? / Jillian Robredo fanfic

26 the confession (2)

JILLIAN'S POV

R: I haven't thought of that, lalo na kung ikaw papakasalan ko.

What?!?! Tama ba ang naririnig ko?

J: uh-uh, tama ba narinig ko Raya?

R: na alin?

J: na di mo maimagine na pakasalan ako?

R: you know what, umuwi na tayo, pagod na ako.

J: no! You have been bragging about kung paano mo ako papakasalan, pero you haven't even thought of marrying me?!?

R: you know what? Yan nalang laging lumalabas sa bunganga mo for these past few days.

J: kaya pala ang cold mo sakin.

R: can you just shut up muna?

J: Raya! This is a serious matter. How can I shut up?

R: I WAS SUPPOSED TO BE DOCTOR!

She suddenly screamed, and tears were falling out from her eyes.

R: you don't get it Jillian, I could've been a doctor!

J: diba I've been supporting-

R: bullshit yang support mo Jill. You invalidated me, you get to be what you dreamt of, pero ako hindi?

J: no one forced you to come with me sa new york.

R: oo, pero when I was accepted, binaliwala mo yun, you said na mas importante na icomfort natin yung mama mo!

J: wait so your blaming me?!

R: alam mo Jill, alam ko kung bakit mong gustong magpakasal. You were pressured, wanting to marry me, kasi kasal na mga kapatid mo.

It suddenly hit me, she was right, I wanted to marry her, kasi I felt like I needed to.

R: alam mo Jill, before, your presence comforted me, kahit nandyan ka lang sa tabi ko, I was already contented. Pero these days, it feels like an obligation to be with you.

J: so wala na? Wala na lang yung 4 years?

My vision was starting to get blurred, alam kong paiyak na ako, my throat hurts from avoiding to cry.

R: Feel ko rin naman wala ka ring spark na nararamdaman sakin, WE WERE JUST HOLDING ONTO OUR MEMORIES.

Tears started falling out to my eyes, Lahat ng sinasabi nya was right, I felt obligated to marry her rather than wanting to, I felt obligated to be with her kahit alam kong ayaw ko.

R: ang unfair lang kasi Jill kasi I was there at your lowest nung namatay father mo, pero nung kinailangan ko yung comfort mo nung namatay parents ko, you were not there. You were not there beside me, dahil lang sa kaduwagan mo.

R: mama Leni and your sisters always reminded me na alagaan ka, paano naman ako?

Tears kept falling from my cheeks, good thing nalang na we were stuck from traffic, kasi it will be hard for me to drive with a blurry vision. Suddenly, Raya opened the door and started walking away from the car. I tried to run after her kaso traffic and I can't just leave my car out of nowhere. When the highway became less traficked, I parked at the nearest gasoline station. Good thing nalang I could track her, from her "find my iphone". I saw her location, it was the park where Raya confessed to me near PISAY. There I saw Raya, at the same exact location, same exact spot, the same exact bench. It felt like the day where I left her 8 years ago. There, I saw her crying, and wiping her tears, just like when I left her. I ran to her, hoping that we, I mean I could fix it.

RAYA'S POV

After I left from the car, I went to the nearest park to cry and let all my emotions out. While crying, I saw a familiar figure and a familiar voice.

J: bud...

Bakit sya nandito? How did she know that I was here?

J: bud, I'm sorry, lahat ng sinabi mo was right, I should've been better.

R: Jillian, everything you had done for me was enough, it's just that we grew out of love. Aminin mo, the smile and eyes you used to give me before, wala na sya ngayon. Alam kong pagod ka na rin, so let's end things na. I'm sorry.

I started to get up from the bench, then she grabbed my arm.

J: Bud, please...I-I c-c-a-n

I saw how she stuttered, figuring out about thinking of a reason for me to stay. I also saw her eyes, it was empty, there was no spark or love. It was a sign that I had to let go.

R: Jillian, you have done enough.

When I was about to run away from her, rain started to pour, it was just like the day from 8 years ago when she left, but this time, it was me. As I ran away from the park, I saw how soaked she was from the rain, she just stood there, unlike me, who ran after her telling her I can wait. We both needed to take a break, hindi lang namin masabi sa isa't isa.

( HOY DI PA TO TAPOS HIHI, PERO PROBS 1 OR 2 CHAPS NALANG TAPOS NA HUHU)