𝑹𝒂𝒔𝒉 𝑫𝒆𝒄𝒊𝒔𝒊𝒐𝒏𝒔

-Prologue-

HEYYYY THE DAY HAS FINALLY COMEE AND THIS IS THE FIRST CHAPTER OF RASH DECISIONS. IM SO EXITED TO FINALLY START PUBLISHING THIS BOOK AND I REALLY HOPE YALL LIKE MY WRITING. HAVE A GOOD READ:)

p.s- even though Nya is still currently in Russia, all of the dialouge will be in English to make it easier to understand.
OKAY BYEEE BABESS<3
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*Mention of death and addiction*

*3 Months Earlier*

"We are so sorry for your loss, love,"

"Thank you,"

"It will get better soon,"

"I hope so. " I reply, chuckling under my breath, smiling in thanks. Like they would know. Turning around, I scan the room for papa, putting on another fake smile for people who probably couldn't care less about Mama. No one did really, well except for Papa and me.

My mother was an addict , always drunk or getting high. She wasn't the best parent but she was family, so hearing that she overdosed was mostly upsetting, but there would always be that little ounce of relief somewhere in me, knowing that she doesn't have the chance to hurt me anymore, even though my brother would always be there to protect me.

Dmitri. He wasn't here today, at the funeral I mean. He hated Mama, always arguing with her, telling her to get clean for her children. It never worked though. On the outside it seems like he could not care less about the fact that his mother just died, but on the inside, I know that there is a slither of sadness brewing inside of him, well i hope there is. Overall though, him and I are doing okay, mourning, in different ways, but still mourning. Papa on the other hand, he was completely calm and collected. Out in public he always had a invisible mask on, shielding his emotions from the outside world.

I found him away from the commotion, sitting on the grass, next to the lake. Sitting down beside him, I leant my head on his shoulder, closing my eyes and breathing in a sigh of fresh air.

"It's beautiful, isn't it, darling," he suddenly speaks up, putting an arm around me keeping me warm.

"It is," I reply, cuddling up against him.

I look up at his face, seeing a tear drop fall down his face. It was heart-breaking see papa cry. It always was. The pass few weeks he always acted okay around me and Dmitri, but at night-time, when we were all asleep, i knew he cried, cried for the loss of the love of his life, cried for his kids.

"It's okay Papa, it's okay," I softly reassured, feeling the tears building up in my eyes. Letting them fall down my face, I side hugged him, embracing his warmth, seeking for comfort. And that's what we did, just sat there for I don't know how long, comforting each other, crying for each other.

"I'm sorry darling, I'm so sorry for failing as a father," he sobs, making me cry even more.

"No papa that isn't true, you are the best father in the world,"

"Thank you, sweetheart, I know I haven't been there for you and your brother in the last few weeks, but when this is all over, I swear i will be better, I'll be better for you,"

"You promise?"

"I promise, darling." He finalises, wiping of his tears and standing up, holding a hand out for me to take. I grab it, standing up and brushing my black dress down.

"I love you, darling"

"I love you too, papa"

With his arm over my shoulder, we walk back over to the funeral ceremony, watching as my mama's body gets sent six feet under the ground and buried.

With that, my Papa and I walk off, everybody having left already, but as we walk back to the car, I can't help but listen to the feeling deep in my bones that even though I had just lost Mama and a part of my life,

I still hadn't hit rock bottom.
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Edited<3

EEEEEE, the first chapter of Rash Decisions everbodyyy.

I hope you had a good read and i'll see ya next time:)

BYE BABESSS<3